It's painful when we believe something is really meant for us and we pray and work hard to try to attain it but the answer seems to be that it isn't. We don't like being told no. The doors we so desperately try to open is sealed shut and we can't seem to figure out why? I've had that happen plenty of times but I know that even when I don't understand why things happen as they do when you give it all to God there is no hesitation in what the outcome will be. The bible (depending mostly of the version) roughly saids about 365 times (I found out) to not worry or to not be afraid. Sometimes through tears I tell God I trust Him even when my heart feels another way. The anxiety that has pulsed through me at those times were so intense my heart felt like it would physically fail me. Despite the feelings my spirit and my body stood planted on His promises. Jesus has never failed me and He never will despite of how I feel or what is going on around me. If the answer is no and you have prayed continuously and has seek Him diligently than it is what its supposed to be. What I learned is the feelings pass and the storms always comes to an end but the Lords promises are forever. He has plans for us and He makes our paths straight. He never fails.
Jeremiah 29: 11-13 (kJV)
11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. 12Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 13And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. .
Jeremiah 29: 11-13 (kJV)
11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. 12Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 13And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. .