Balderdash!
YOU ARE NOT DAMAGED GOODS BUT "GOODS" WITH DAMAGE.
I have zero childhood memories before about age 12 also.
Childhood trauma. Both parents simple, under educated, mean spirited baffoons. (and alcoholics)
Mother a J.W. that scared me to death with "Jehovah".
I know better now but it's easy to form a child's mind.
To this very day I feel GUILTY IF I CELEBRATE a b-day or X-mass!
I became alcoholic for years but that too is gone. I don't drink at all nor use any mind, mood, altering
substance. I can not.
I attend regular A.A. meetings a PRAY daily giving thanks for sobriety.
My A.A. go to guy, my sponsor, is openly gay and I LOVE him.
When we meet we kiss ON THE LIPS and it's NOT sexual.
I'm so straight I can't even bend over.
I'm engaged to a fine woman and she loves my sponsor as much as I.
I judge no one!.
God's job, not mine.