I am acquainted with the immense love of Jesus and the power of the cross and His precious blood shed for me---and for you.
I'm sorry that you do not follow the gospel, then. What do you think the pure gospel of Jesus Christ is??? It is none other than the Good News of Jesus Christ as God incarnate who has come to Earth to be the perfect sacrifice for our sin, His life's blood poured out, His life given in the divine exchange on the cross---giving His life in exchange for ours, our sin punished on His sinless body---so that we can become children of God.
In terms of spirituality, would you die for another? Would you demonstrate your love for a friend, a neighbour, an enemy by laying down your life? I hope, if the Lord called me to, I would show my love in such a way.
You use the term "I am acquainted with the immense love of Jesus" you talk of the gospel like a legal equation. It is so much more than that, but that is where our perspectives differ. Unfortunately we all live by our feelings, and most keep them in check so they have no clue what is going on inside, but they matter, really matter, they define our true selves.
I can see the distance Jesus is from you, and the key issues the Holy Spirit would have to talk to you about you push away.
You want to believe we are so different, but we are not. You want to tell me how little I know, and yet I know Jesus better than you. I am not self righteous, but your words speak to me that love is not your highest agenda item. After listening to Joyce I can begin to see why.
I wish I knew my sin like you do, to see it immediately, confess and be restored as you describe. I would point my experience to like King David, who schemed with Bathsheba, had a child, killed the husband and married her.
Sin is often a lot more involved and complex, than you nice ideas.
The problem with changing words from a sinner saved by grace to a saint in righteousness, is it creates the image of the destination and not the journey. WOF , NAR, latter rain do matter, but it appears you do not like talking about it.
You chose to take the position you do, so I know you feel you have a difference to me.
I think it is you prefer to be in the world more than true spirituality, and cling on to "Spirit" experiences above emotional reality, working love through your life, being honest about crises and hurts that stop us all from fullfilling the ministry christ has for us.
I do not mind you suggesting you represent the body of Christ and I do not, because all I need to know is Jesus loves me and I love him back, in obedience to His word and with the love he planted in me. It really does take a long time to learn peoples stories and how they express themselves, and each journey is different. I wish you well, and find the Lords blessing in your life, no matter where you might be at the moment.