but salvation doesn't come by simply saying "thank you Lord".
I have been where you are.
I know this is not going to be easy, so, in my experience, it was good to lay aside certain things, let's focus on faith.
Where is your faith?
Do you believe God, and trust in Christ and what He did for you on that cross 100% plus nothing added, for the complete salvation of your soul?
If not, you have misplaced faith.
Be honest, with yourself, with God, in your heart. It is ok to set your doctrines down at the foot of the cross and just trust in Christ and start from there. God wants to receive you, hear you, love you, teach you, help you, bless you. He is patient and He is kind, meek and lowly in heart toward us.
Grace is freely given(unto all), we receive all the gifts, benefits, blessings, mercy and righteousness of God by trusting in the work and faith of Christ(and upon all who believe).
Sometimes, when we believe something so deeply, doctrinally, it seems so right, so true, to question it, almost seems like questioning God... but, He is our Counselor and Helper, lover of our soul, He wants us to turn to Him.
Just examine if your faith is completely in Christ, God your Savior, 100% plus nothing, for the salvation of your soul. You have to have salvation, before you can respond to it or "work it out"
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8 [/SUP]For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:[SUP]
9 [/SUP]Not of works, lest any man should boast. [SUP]
24 [/SUP]Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus
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13 [/SUP]In whom ye also
trusted, after that
ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise, [SUP]
14 [/SUP]Which is the
earnest of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the praise of
his glory.
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18 [/SUP]To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God,
that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are
sanctified by faith that is in me.