If that is how you feel it is time to do some soul searching.I f you are doing good works to save yourself, you'll never make it. I'm a Christian, my reward is in pleasing him not saving myself because I already know the one I love finished his work. He was sent to be the savior of the world and he said to the Father, "I finished the work you sent me to do." If you believe that the verses I quoted are lies, you must not be a believer. If you believe that the few verses that talk about God's punishment somehow prove that the ones I quoted are not, you believe that God's word contradicts itself, you are not a believer. Maybe it would be wise to study the Bible enough to understand that there is no contradiction. Your faith is in yourself and what you believe and not in the Word of God that you only believe what you want to hear. My book, "Without Doubt" is a very detailed explanation of why millions of us believe that God will do everything that he vowed to do in the verses I cited. Please read the book and think seriously about it. You're living your life in fear. I assure you, loving God because he loves you will not cause you to flee Him and live a sinful life. Not if you are about loving Him because He first loved you. But if it does, be ready to pass through those flames because He does promise punishment for the unrighteous. Are my five minutes up yet? I will be praying for you.