I have tried elsewhere to seek help. I am asking the users in this forum to trust what I'm saying. I explained my situation, but people only offer me solutons which are not possible. I am asking, and i DONT mean to be offended, that you accept all of these premises as true. I once wanted a female companion. That is long passed. There is no chance of it. I'm in my 30s now.
I need help and I don't need help from people telling me to do things which I cannot do. Please I ask you to accept these immutable premises:
- I cannot get married.
- I cannot work.
- Society is so corrupt its impossible to marry and even if it were it would be an unacceptable risk (metoo), as the likelihood of it destroying my life is high.
- I am desperate for a woman's touch. I'm miserable, having no outlet, and pornography is sin.
- The above premises are not changeable.
If you are unwilling to accept these premises, then you can't help me. I promise I am telling the truth.