Do you ever feel like you don't have much to offer other people or the kingdom of God because you're a "plain vanilla" Christian?
No. There was one point at which I had that thought for a brief moment, but I banished it quickly, and won't let it return.
My Mom and I were talking about this because my parents regularly hear all kinds of testimonies through their work. She told that she often feels like she doesn't have anything to offer anyone because she's doesn't have an incredibly intense testimony as so many Christians do. She was born and raised a Christian, married early, stayed at home to raise a family... and continues to be my Dad's faithful help mate every single day.
I don't consider anyone to be born a Christian, which is why we must be born again. We must believe and choose Christ, that is what makes us a Christian. And that is what a Testimony is about, what he did for us.
I don't know if it's just me, but I'm often blown away by the testimonies some people have--recovery from drug and alcohol addiction, surviving abandonment and raising kids amidst the turmoil, and several "there is no cure" medical issues that were miraculously healed.
I admire each and every person for the personal struggles God has helped them overcome.
But it leaves me feeling as if... I don't have anything worthwhile to contribute to the Christian circle. This is part of the reason why I continuously come back to CC to talk about what's on my heart--in real life, I mostly listen, because nothing I have to add is nearly as powerful, and I don't want to detract from someone else's testimony.
I've never done drugs, and I've never had an alcoholic beverage in my life. I was blessed with two Christian parents, who shared with me, from a young age, the Bible, and who Jesus was. I accepted Jesus when I was 4, and it is the best decision I've ever made. I'm not who I was, nor am I who I would have been without Christ. I'm far from perfect, and I have struggles and hardship, but God is faithful, and he has never left my side. He has kept his word. Without him, I don't know where I would be, but I doubt I'd even be a shadow of who I am today.
I believe these types of testimonies are so important, because they show that God doesn't just save the drug users and alcoholics, but everyone. Imagine the difference in impact it could make for someone who is in a similar position to mine, but hasn't yet made that decision. There is nothing vanilla about the way that God loved me.
And for the record, whenever you do add something I find it very valuable, especially when what you are sharing is like a giant arrow pointing to what God has done in your life.
On the flip side, I've also had some Christian people tell me (in a condescending way) that I've had a very easy life (with the implication is that I must be "Christianity Lite", and only a fraction of the true Christian that they are because of their trials.) To some people, more suffering and trials means they rate higher as a Christian.
Now, I am certainly NOT saying that anyone with a powerful testimony this way, but it often seems to me as if the most extreme testimonies are also showcased at the church or in a Bible study. The person who was rescued from the most sordid things is usually asked to share, not the small town girl who simply became a housewife.
I know that we all have a testimony, and that it's all valuable to our Lord.
It is sad when this happens, and I have seen it happen in different churches. It always seemed weird to me. Not everyone's situation is the same. It is important though, what they do with that situation. I think this is a very dangerous path to go down. When we start making this comparisons, we putting the focus on the people, and not on what Jesus did for the people.
But do find yourself ever feeling as if... The "true" Christians are the ones who have suffered the most, and somehow, you're not worth nearly as much to God or other Christians because your life hasn't nearly been so "colorful"?
No. All have sinned and fallen short of the Glory of God. Acts 10:34-35
A “true” Christian, is someone who has confessed with their mouth and believed in their heart that Jesus is Lord.