A long time ago, we had a male poster here in Singles who was extremely adamant about marrying ONLY a virgin someday. It didn't matter to him if she had been abused, he wanted ONLY a "true", untouched virgin.
After some pressing, he later admitted that his biggest reason for this was his own insecurity--he was afraid of being compared to ANY of the partners a woman may have had before him--and not measuring up or being as "good" as anyone else, whether in size, skill, or both.
I'm not saying this applies to the OP or anyone else who demands only pure, snow-white virgins as potential...
But it always reminds me of that very honest answer from that former male poster.