If you want, Jesus will set you free from that. BTW,,NONE of us men of God would be in a place like that. The guys you meet there, won't be in church, home group, mens fellowship, sat work day at church or a mission trip. Start hanging with that group. It's a great place to start. Glad to hear that you acknowledge that you have baggage, great] place to start.
A bitter woman says, all men are the same, a wise woman just stops dating the same kind of men..
Heal, you owe it to the Lord and yourself! I'm glad you came out of that lifestyle, good job!