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Sis you just reminded me of the Application I had given out to all those that wanted to date my Daughter, and it asked rigorous ?'s, and at the end of this three page questionnaire, it stated allow, 3 years to process, she was 15 at that time.
so yep, and I think that now there should be an official application for passing to date our daughters, and if man could start seeing all as his daughter in love true love would have and show respect to all women, when they see them and see them as Sister and or Daughter in God's love, period, just how I have come to see, and did not always see it this way, yet am and have been taught this
So all men reading think on this wise please, all women think on this wise as well, when seeing men think, they are yuor Son's or your Brothers please
The perniciousness in this world has gone tooooooooooo far compassion has been thrown out the window for many, and here it is sticking around, so I thank you all to see reality over stupidity and give up what you think you might need at the moment for what you know you need in the long run, Love eternal

Sorry went on a rampage, remembering all the guys I warded off, only thinking of themselves, which I had when I was younger as well, tempted as all get tempted, yet decided what is is not to be with me, and turned to God for the help IO needed to understand and stood right there at the throne of grace,not budging, to hear and know, how to truly love neighbor as God through Son loved me.
Praying all here do the same and do not give up to know how deep this love is for you, and all
Oooh, that sounds like a good safeguard! Do tell us more about this application questionnaire of yours. :)
 

homwardbound

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I feel like a loser compared to my other family members compared to my parents even. All my cousins are married, all my friends are married and have kids and here I am... stuck.. with a job I hate.. miles and miles away from the one I love unsure if my family will even accept him.

I hate telling people about my parents. Why? When they hear my mom's name.. they say "oh you're her daughter....where do you work? What do you do?" Why? Because when she wrote her exams years and years ago she topped the entire caribbean so companies have her pictures in their offices and treat her like royalty because of the things she's done. My dad doesn't make it any easier either. He's in the news almost every week.... college students are doing papers about him.. they are asking him for lectures..one of the interns at work befriended me just to ask me to get her an interview with him... which hurt. People treat me horribly.. then when they find out who my parents are they suck up to me. I'm sick of it.

Seems everyone is doing things with their lives, being all successful while I sit back and waste away till it's time to go home to God.
Have you read this in Scripture? Don't do as the heathen do, loving to sit in Moses's seat, getting popularity, plaudits, because it is possible sister, that, that might be the only reward they get. as this will be revealed in due time as to who really is who, when God says go away to those popular ones that only thought of themselves, and passed by the harmed ones on the road in their success, not having the heart as the good samaritan had, yet just let god be the judge of it all Sis

I once saw like you are seeing now, and I saw all the tress around me having much fruit hanging off of them, the branches ready to break, so heavy from the fruit handing from them.
And I only had one little dangling piece hanging off mine, and man did I want some of those other tress fruit, as you are stating, wanting to be somebody, successful as what you see all around you and in your immediate family, right?

Well Sis trusting God to show you truth here as God showed me, I heard okay, Howard go over there and take a bite. I did and I got a mouthfull of wax and spit it out, stating how horrible, and God said yes it is and yet it looks so real and appetizing did it not, I said yes what is it. It is fake fruit looking, smelling and appearing so good, when in reality after yo take a bite you find out differently, and are discouraged, and want no part of it, right?
I said you got that right, and so what I do in response to this? God said Just love, now take a bite off the fruit that you have, hanging off your branch? I said but then I won't have any fruit left, and God said take a bite and watch?
So I did and awesome fruit it is God's Love that I tasted and watched immediately another piece grow inn place of the piece I just took off, so I grabbed it to eat it and watched another grow again immediately ripe. So I said what is this?
And God said God's love to all, through me that will never end.
So Sister watch out for going after the world and all its glamor and trying to grow much fruit, which many times turns out fake
Love you praying God discerns this for you to you and you see past the pain
 

homwardbound

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​What do you do when something you've prayed for is finally given to you...after you've given up on it?
Entering his courts with thanksgiving and praise, even if don't get what have asked for, trusting that God, Father knows best, not having to know why as I know why not to touch a hot stove.
Trust and thanks to me are keys to whether no or yes, of coarse more so when it is yes,
Just stay wise as a serpent, and harmless as a dove
Maybe do like the Eskimo does when goes out, he ties a rope to him, and a stake in the ground, so if gets lost in the storm, can always pull himself back to home by the rope
So do the same spiritually as you are discovering new oceans, if get lost, you can turn as you learn asking to be pulled back home, and God Father is faithful to do so
I am excited for you, in your new discoveries
 

homwardbound

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Oooh, that sounds like a good safeguard! Do tell us more about this application questionnaire of yours. :)
All you need to do is make up your own ?'s to any guy to read it and not able to pass it. And at the end a clause in case you can pass allow ___________________ as many years as need until 18, for processing it, so no matter what no one can pass it.
And my daughter saw that, and I said exactly, she complained naturally, and I said, do you think you know all? She said yes, cause she wanted to date, hormones, oh yeah, I saw
So I said then if you think you know then, move out, get a job, get your own place, pay your own bills, and she saw, what I said and yet still wanted to date, I said okay, they have to pass that application. So she found a person to pass it, and I said did you forget about the clause, she said but Dad. I said okay when you make this date, first I get to meet the guy and I chaperone, She again but Dad, and then comes the Mom said and the playing of the fiddle

So knowing she would date behind our backs if we did not let her date. So we allowed her to date, yet made her aware of all that guys usually think about and girls do as well. So we had her think about consequences for any and all actions and reactions to her hormones and wanting to be liked.
So freedom we gave her, knowing she knew the truth about it all, and not to give up waht she thinks she needs at the moment in place of what she has in the long run, life everlasting from God, that God will not take away, because God does not lie
So in retrospect to this in appreciation do you still want to date? And she said no
That is the love of God first we train them in harshness many a times, yet always show the love above that, of God, if one only disciplines their Child and does not show God's love in spite of it, loses their child, especially after 18 and some even so if you did do the best you could
Does this help, brother
their has to be a mix of both discipline and love, God's type not man's who only rewards if you do as man says
God's type of love is:
[h=1]1 Corinthians 13:4-7New International Version (NIV)[/h][SUP]4 [/SUP]Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. [SUP]5 [/SUP]It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. [SUP]6 [/SUP]Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. [SUP]7 [/SUP]It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Making you children aware is important, not keep them naive to what is out there in the world
 

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I love 3-day weekends, except for that sad part where Monday comes around again.
 
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Tintin

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All you need to do is make up your own ?'s to any guy to read it and not able to pass it. And at the end a clause in case you can pass allow ___________________ as many years as need until 18, for processing it, so no matter what no one can pass it.
And my daughter saw that, and I said exactly, she complained naturally, and I said, do you think you know all? She said yes, cause she wanted to date, hormones, oh yeah, I saw
So I said then if you think you know then, move out, get a job, get your own place, pay your own bills, and she saw, what I said and yet still wanted to date, I said okay, they have to pass that application. So she found a person to pass it, and I said did you forget about the clause, she said but Dad. I said okay when you make this date, first I get to meet the guy and I chaperone, She again but Dad, and then comes the Mom said and the playing of the fiddle

So knowing she would date behind our backs if we did not let her date. So we allowed her to date, yet made her aware of all that guys usually think about and girls do as well. So we had her think about consequences for any and all actions and reactions to her hormones and wanting to be liked.
So freedom we gave her, knowing she knew the truth about it all, and not to give up waht she thinks she needs at the moment in place of what she has in the long run, life everlasting from God, that God will not take away, because God does not lie
So in retrospect to this in appreciation do you still want to date? And she said no
That is the love of God first we train them in harshness many a times, yet always show the love above that, of God, if one only disciplines their Child and does not show God's love in spite of it, loses their child, especially after 18 and some even so if you did do the best you could
Does this help, brother
their has to be a mix of both discipline and love, God's type not man's who only rewards if you do as man says
God's type of love is:
1 Corinthians 13:4-7New International Version (NIV)

[SUP]4 [/SUP]Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. [SUP]5 [/SUP]It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. [SUP]6 [/SUP]Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. [SUP]7 [/SUP]It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Making you children aware is important, not keep them naive to what is out there in the world
Yes, that's excellent, Homeward. Good on you for being a loving, godly father. There aren't enough of them in the world.
 
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I have a square canvas that is made so it can be turned into a...thing...shadowbox? Something. It's got brackety deals to hold lighting. Anyway...I've painted more than enough swirly-whirlies for now, and other things that aren't really things that pre-teen girly girls would probably really like. I have no idea yet what to do with this canvas, except that I'd like to do something spectacular. Which is subjective. But! Something. I don't know, I'm highly distractible right now. After looking at the work of local artists, and how subject matter was all pretty much the same, I kinda don't think anyone in the area would particularly care for the kind of paintings I do. Not that it matters. I was just thinking it would be super cool, at some point if I get better at painting, to actually show my work somewhere. But people here appreciate landscapes and wildlife, not oddball designs. I dunno. I'm getting ideas.
 

CatHerder

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I feel like a loser compared to my other family members compared to my parents even...
You have your own talents, your own gifts, and your own walk. Stop comparing yourself to others.
Laura, when I was 16, I dated a guy who was 20. I wish someone told me to end it. I wish I ended it. My advice to you is enjoy your childhood for as long as you can, hang on to it. No guy is worth losing that.
Losers don't reach out and give godly advice to others when they themselves are hurting. That compassion you exercised by doing that is one of your gifts.
 

DuchessAimee

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I had significantly lower glucose numbers (about 200 points lower than a week ago) this morning, so yay! However, I had two migraines yesterday which wasn't fun. But the migraines are expected. They're a result from breaking my face a decade ago. And I found some protein packs that contain turkey, colby cheese, and almonds. 13 grams of protein... not too shabby.


So! What's the moral to this story you ask?


Lower numbers equal goodness, and at all costs, don't break your face.
 
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Shouryu

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Lower numbers equal goodness, and at all costs, don't break your face.
Except for protein. Higher numbers.

Didn't you have a recent doctor's visit where they were going to do a thorough re-evaluation of your diabetes treatment? Did they make changes?
 

DuchessAimee

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I don't know why but my children and I all have cold, it's July, this isn't right.


Colds are viral. Viruses, bacteria, fungi, etc all require heat to grow and prosper. So medically speaking, it makes some sense. Lysol is your friend at this point. Spray every surface, hose your children down with it if you're so inclined.
 

DuchessAimee

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Except for protein. Higher numbers.

Didn't you have a recent doctor's visit where they were going to do a thorough re-evaluation of your diabetes treatment? Did they make changes?


As for the protein stuff, I know I need more. That's why I use the turkey/cheese/almond pack for a snack.


Yes, she changed everything. I am insulin dependent for now. One injection of a long lasting insulin that lasts 24 hours, and 3 injections of fast acting insulin I have to take before meals. I might be able to get rid of the diabetes completely, but my doc thinks I've slowly become insulin dependent because my pancreas has slowly stopped working.



So, that's fun.
 

rachelsedge

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I feel like a loser compared to my other family members compared to my parents even. All my cousins are married, all my friends are married and have kids and here I am... stuck.. with a job I hate.. miles and miles away from the one I love unsure if my family will even accept him.
My heart aches for you because, while our circumstances are different, I share a taste of what you feel. I've always compared myself and felt compared to my twin. She is thinner, tanner, more outgoing, pretty...she is now married, recently bought a beautiful house and bought an adorable dog, she's an elementary teacher. Many of my other cousins are married and are starting to have kids as well.

Now, I've gotten much better about feeling insecure around my sister (and I do love and adore her), but my family reunion this weekend, I just felt...I don't know. I'm starting to cry just typing this, just my feelings from those past few days finally being realized as I respond, but honestly I felt not-enough again. I'm not anywhere close to getting married. I don't have a particularly interesting job, and the job I'm applying for where I'm moving isn't what I ever thought I'd be doing and I have no idea if I'll like it. I don't have a house. I feel/felt boring and unspecial and ugly as a person. My experience in South Dakota made me feel like a failure for a long time, and it still sometimes does. I'm not outgoing. I know my family loves me, but I hate that feeling. And I know those feelings are not from God. Christ would never tell me that. Yet in my mind, I view them as truth, and it's a struggle, it's a darn hard struggle, to listen to Christ instead of the lies inside me.

And then I think....what if I get married, or had a house, or had an interesting job? What then? Why would I be a more "special" person having done/been certain things? Because really, those things don't define me and if they are that important to other people, then they don't care about my heart. Shouldn't I boast in Christ no matter what my circumstances?

Gosh, I'm sobbing now. This was the tipping point of my internal stress-bottle I guess, ha. I didn't mean to make that all about me. My point is...I get you. I feel for you. Don't listen to the lies, as hard as it is. Christ has made us free. We are free to be "just a ______" (job title) in Him. We are free to be different from our parents and our siblings and our family. We are free to have peace in Him.
 

DuchessAimee

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It is extremely difficult for me to see people in pain. Physical pain, yes, but more so emotional or spiritual pain. I want to do a range of things which goes from giving a hug to having an intense and confrontational conversation with them. This includes myself, just so y'all know... and I have very honest talks with me. Most of the time they are painful, but helpful. Draining, but still soothing.



I wish I could tell people what I can see in them, both good and bad. But in the end, it would be pointless. And that is what I think I find the most grieving- how unwilling we are to see ourselves as hurt and wounded. If we would actually admit, actually come out of denial about... things...



It doesn't matter.



My only advice is this. When God shows you something to work on in yourself, do it. Pain is the only path to progress.
 
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Raine

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My heart aches for you because, while our circumstances are different, I share a taste of what you feel. I've always compared myself and felt compared to my twin. She is thinner, tanner, more outgoing, pretty...she is now married, recently bought a beautiful house and bought an adorable dog, she's an elementary teacher. Many of my other cousins are married and are starting to have kids as well.

Now, I've gotten much better about feeling insecure around my sister (and I do love and adore her), but my family reunion this weekend, I just felt...I don't know. I'm starting to cry just typing this, just my feelings from those past few days finally being realized as I respond, but honestly I felt not-enough again. I'm not anywhere close to getting married. I don't have a particularly interesting job, and the job I'm applying for where I'm moving isn't what I ever thought I'd be doing and I have no idea if I'll like it. I don't have a house. I feel/felt boring and unspecial and ugly as a person. My experience in South Dakota made me feel like a failure for a long time, and it still sometimes does. I'm not outgoing. I know my family loves me, but I hate that feeling. And I know those feelings are not from God. Christ would never tell me that. Yet in my mind, I view them as truth, and it's a struggle, it's a darn hard struggle, to listen to Christ instead of the lies inside me.

And then I think....what if I get married, or had a house, or had an interesting job? What then? Why would I be a more "special" person having done/been certain things? Because really, those things don't define me and if they are that important to other people, then they don't care about my heart. Shouldn't I boast in Christ no matter what my circumstances?

Gosh, I'm sobbing now. This was the tipping point of my internal stress-bottle I guess, ha. I didn't mean to make that all about me. My point is...I get you. I feel for you. Don't listen to the lies, as hard as it is. Christ has made us free. We are free to be "just a ______" (job title) in Him. We are free to be different from our parents and our siblings and our family. We are free to have peace in Him.
Rachel,

It seems that we are all going thru similar trials and struggles. I'm in the same boat too... And I definitely felt it today. Was very unproductive due to feeling down and worthless... And I hear God calling my name but for some reason I don't wanna turn to him right now.

Lets just all huddle up and cry and laugh together. :')

Thank you ladies for being vulnerable and sharing your struggles openly with us. It gives me comfort knowing that I am not fighting this battle alone. Through him, we will be victorious!
 
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Number of painting fails today: 3

Number of cups of coffee consumed: 9

Number of diapers changed: 8

Number of angry prayers said: 1 (continuous)

I think I'd be fine with this day ending right now, rather than enduring two more hours of this. Maybe I'll feel better later, when my apartment stops pretending to be a solar oven. I tried to take a nap, but my dreams were little snippets of awfulness. People who don't belong in my brain were appearing and not leaving. If they don't get lost, I'm going to start charging them rent. Good grief, I forgot I started dinner. Thaaaaat's burnt. Weeeeee what fun I'm having!


 
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Raine

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God, all your ways are beautiful.
All of them. Not just a few or those we favor.
All the ways of the King of kings are beautiful.
Help our hearts to not doubt your love for us.