I'm sorry CG. But I think it's normal to romanticize people after we let them go...okay I wouldn't know but I assume that's what happens. haha
Anyways you have to worry about yourself, not this girl. Didn't you say she would take money from you and abuse you verbally? You think God is happy with you living like that? He wants the best for his children. You deserve a girl who's going to treat you right and is respectful to you.
Don't waste time thinking about the past or wondering if you made the right decision. You know you did. Think of it this way: If she's using you for money, she doesn't really love you and will eventually leave. So it's best to do the hard part (getting over her) right now and not later when you're more involved with her.
I hope I helped. God bless you, brother!