Hey Everyone! Lying in bed, life laid bare, and not sleeping as has become so common over the years, I've come to a point of interest:
The need (or feeling of need, strong desire) to have someone to talk and share with.
I've come to the realization over the years, this site included, that all the chat sites, role playing, gaming, etc has been done either as a distraction from things in my life (living in a fantasy world), or the sometimes desperate/varying degree search for someone new to learn about, get to know, talk with, spend time with, etc...
The feeling of anticipation and excitement as you await that next message... The depth of heart and reality in life you can sometimes find and share with another... The late night, sleep deprived, hourless conversations about anything and everything... I so deeply enjoy and sometimes bitterly miss.
My most common reason given to those who've asked me over the years to the 'So what brought you here?' question has resoundingly been... "The hope of finding someone to talk to.".
I'm an introvert, but not shy. Strangely enough, I really don't need another casual friend or aquaintance that pops in once Ina while... It's the life on life, day in and day out, joy and sorrow, life-partner sharing that I crave. I'm not even talking about a romantic relationship..just an open, deep, consistent friendship.
I've had friends over the years who used to talk with me via pm, phone, email, text, etc... Throughout the day, everyday. Part of me really misses that, and sometimes feels a nagging 'need' for it.
Can any of you relate to this? What do you do when those feelings bubble up and rob your sleep, thoughts, or attention?