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I'm sorry ZT about what you are going through right now. There is light at the end of the tunnel! I think you are depressed. I know because I've been depressed multiple times throughout my life and have attempted suicide a few times.
The thing is that I've never been through things as difficult as yours' are. So you should know that you are strong!
Finding a good friend to talk to would help you, I think! I have found that making friends on here (b/c it's hard for me to be social with the anxiety IRL) helps me a lot.
Things I find interesting: deepening my relationship with God (we can always go deeper or more intimate than before), reading, watching Netflix (especially watching documentaries about nature), walking in the local nature park by my house, people and the way they think, math and all it's logic, history, and basically just learning about pretty much anything. I love to read academic books (textbooks mostly) for fun. I like knowing what's out there and how things work. The more I learn about the world and the living creatures that exist in it, the more fascinated I am with our God who made it all!
Also, I know you are single ZT and that your dad just passed a little while ago. Have you thought about adopting a child? This way you're not alone and you can raise a little one as your son/daughter. Just a thought.
The thing is that I've never been through things as difficult as yours' are. So you should know that you are strong!
Finding a good friend to talk to would help you, I think! I have found that making friends on here (b/c it's hard for me to be social with the anxiety IRL) helps me a lot.
Things I find interesting: deepening my relationship with God (we can always go deeper or more intimate than before), reading, watching Netflix (especially watching documentaries about nature), walking in the local nature park by my house, people and the way they think, math and all it's logic, history, and basically just learning about pretty much anything. I love to read academic books (textbooks mostly) for fun. I like knowing what's out there and how things work. The more I learn about the world and the living creatures that exist in it, the more fascinated I am with our God who made it all!
Also, I know you are single ZT and that your dad just passed a little while ago. Have you thought about adopting a child? This way you're not alone and you can raise a little one as your son/daughter. Just a thought.