Im sinlge cuz.... its kinda difficult to explain. There are several reasons why, Id say.
I do have some social anxiety, I do get nervous around people I dont know all that well, and I struggle to talk when around them. I even have this problem at work, when people want to have a conversation with me, I generally look away from them, and struggle to think of things to say. And when I do try to talk I forget words and studder over what Im trying to say sometimes. Its not really that horrible, but at times it can be difficult. There are a few people who I actually really do just naturally click with, like at work there was this 50 year old Catholic lady that I just felt really comfortable with, and we could just talk about anything. I had no problems with her at all. But that rarely happens : p
My mother lives with me, and I am currently her sole provider. Shes in a lot of pain and cant work that much anymore, and shes not married, and our father left us when I was very young. None of my siblings are willing to help her, so Ive kinda fallen into the role of her provider : p Im certainly not angry about it, she does need help, and I dont have children or anything. But Im well aware that any women I meet are not gonna be interested in a guy who takes care of his mother, so I think this will set me back in that part of life a bit : p
Am hoping that one day they will give her the disability she needs to live.
Im..... I guess picky about whatever girl Id end up with. I have my own issues I deal with everyday. And there are alot of earthly things that I just dont like or enjoy being around. Im not gonna go on about what they are here, but many girls often like these things, and I just dont wanna be around some of that kinda stuff.
I think Id do really well with a girl whos like me, one who comes from a similar life that I did. And one who feels the same way I do about stuff, and neither of us would ever have to worry about feeling uncomfortable with the other : p I mean we both have to agree with the other (as in who we are, having to fit as two people) and feel comfortable together.
Im not really all that upset about being single, though. I mean, having that special bond feels really great, yeah. But Im mostly just worried about having peace of mind and having my needs met, haha : p That would be a really nice thing to have in life, too, yeah. But I can live a fine life without ever having that, as long as I have loving friends or family, warm shelter, clean clothes, and food and water : p
But dunno, maybe one day Ill find a girl I really click with and feel like Id want to be around all the time : p Its happened before, actually, so I totally have faith that it /could/ happen again : p