Made to look? Or came across that way?
You came online and announced that you wanted friends, but not any of us. But you did want our help.
I also gave you a genuine suggestion as to why things are not going your way. Your response is to (once again) be dismissive and completely ignore the advice, that in no way put you down, but was intended to give you something to consider about God and His motives in your life. Then you throw a tantrum that you didn't get your way, call people loveless and run away. But it's 'others' that make you look selfish.
You are right, we're horrible, loveless people and you have behaved impeccably. Because nothing says 'love' like contradicting yourself, dismissing people that try to help you and then blaming them for your behavior.
I truly hope you will find the answers you are needing to find.