Hey everyone,
I am new here, and I am not even exactly sure what I’m doing right now posting haha.
Anyways, It’s been a bit of a hard few months for me! I didn’t ring in the new year how I thought I would.
My partner of 5 years, with whom I share 2 beautiful children, broke up with me.
We were engaged and supposed to get married this month! I am only 22, and she is 21! She basically told me she hasn’t been happy for a very long time (which I kinda knew but never wanted to believe) and that she wants to go off and do her own thing with no controls or constraints...
She isn’t a Christian and refuses to believe that God is with us or even exists in the way that’s i know he does!
I was lost for a long time, I was saved when I was 8, but lost my way when I hit my teen years! After all that went down with my ex, I came back to God and I am now re-saved and trying every day to Love and Trust in God!
Every day is a struggle, I have come to the ‘end’ a couple of times over the last couple of months! I am currently trying the Love Dare on my ex and it seemed to be working quite well, until I found out ‘the hard way’ about another guy...
I found them, it was fairly innocent, but I lost my cool and blanked out! I lost it at her and scared my kids, I made myself look so foolish and just down right pathetic really...
I spoke with my good friend and Pastor and he basically told me, not to give up, but to let go and Just Love her! The same way that God loves us and the same way that Jesus loved us enough to take away all our sins on the cross!
So I decided to do that, I just want her so badly to be saved! Not for me, but so she can experience the same Love and Grace that I have and all of you have!
I guess why I’m writing is just to find some like minded people for encouragement and support while I go through this big trial!
Any advice would be greatly apprecitated, so would any scriptures or learning material! I am newly back on my God Path and just want to stay the course now!
Thanks all, sorry, just needed an outlet to release I guess haha!