Lovesong Poetry

[Siberian_Khatru]

Great lyrics; reminds me of the New Spirituality:

​Totem
I've got twelve disciples and a Buddha smile
Garden of Allah, Viking Valhalla
A miracle once in a while

I've got a pantheon of animals in a pagan soul
Vishnu and Gaia, Aztec and Maya
Dance around my totem pole
Totem pole...

I believe in what I see
I believe in what I hear
I believe that what I'm feeling
Changes how the world appears

Angels and demons dancing in my head
Lunatics and monsters underneath my bed
Media messiahs preying on my fears
Pop culture prophets playing in my ears

I've got celestial mechanics
To synchronize my stars
Seasonal migrations, daily variations
World of the unlikely and bizarre

I've got idols and icons, unspoken holy vows
Thoughts to keep well-hidden
Sacred and forbidden
Free to browse among the holy cows

That's why I believe

Angels and demons inside of me
Saviors and Satans all around me

Sweet chariot, swing low, coming for me​

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

The Analog Kid
A hot and windy August afternoon
Has the trees in constant motion
With a flash of silver leaves
As they're rocking in the breeze

The boy lies in the grass with one blade
Stuck between his teeth
A vague sensation quickens
In his young and restless heart
And a bright and nameless vision
Has him longing to depart

You move me
You move me
With your buildings and your eyes
Autumn woods and winter skies
You move me
You move me
Open sea and city lights
Busy streets and dizzy heights
You call me
You call me

The fawn-eyed girl with sun-browned legs
Dances on the edge of his dream
And her voice rings in his ears
Like the music of the spheres

The boy lies in the grass, unmoving
Staring at the sky
His mother starts to call him
As a hawk goes soaring by
The boy pulls down his baseball cap
And covers up his eyes

You move me
You move me
With your buildings and your eyes
Autumn woods and winter skies
You move me
You move me
Open sea and city lights
Busy streets and dizzy heights
You call me
You call me

Too many hands on my time
Too many feelings
Too many things on my mind
When I leave I don't know
What I'm hoping to find
When I leave I don't know
What I'm leaving behind...​

 

[Wolf]

I Get It
by: Lowanla (me)

I Get It, Say no more
This whole thing is stupid
I don't want to write anymore
I'm just letting you go
I've got things to do

I only came here because you asked me to;
to love you with everything I have to give;
but I can't take all this abuse;
I can't take the loneliness, and false promises,
I can't take being used.

it hurts too much.

I don't think I will come see you,
I don't think I can,
I even hold the ticket in my hand;
I tried for you, I really did,
but I really think I deserve better than this.

I get it, say no more.
This ends the chapter book;
where you realize you love me no more.

I get it,

just shake the dust off my feet
and move on.
Let you go.​

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

I Get It
by: Lowanla (me)
...​

Lovesong...? You okay, buddy?

 

[Wolf]

Lovesong...? You okay, buddy?

ha.. not really, but who cares.
this is stupid.
I'm kind of sick of this place. I think you guys really need to find your own threads and outlets of your own.
Let this place fade away

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

ha.. not really, but who cares.
this is stupid.
I'm kind of sick of this place. I think you guys really need to find your own threads and outlets of your own.
Let this place fade away

An outlet is something I use to charge my phone. Friends are not outlets to me. (Your'e my friend, by the way).

Let me know if there's anything I can do for ya. <3

 

[Wolf]

An outlet is something I use to charge my phone. Friends are not outlets to me. (Your'e my friend, by the way).

Let me know if there's anything I can do for ya. <3

I didn't mean outlet that way.. and no thankyou. by the way.
I don't want people sharing their poems or thoughts with me anymore. Get your own thing going. This is stupid I am done.

Dictionary meaning for outlet - "a means of expression or satisfaction: an outlet for one's artistic impulses."

 

[PopClick]

I didn't mean outlet that way.. and no thankyou. by the way.
I don't want people sharing their poems or thoughts with me anymore. Get your own thing going. This is stupid I am done.

Dictionary meaning for outlet - "a means of expression or satisfaction: an outlet for one's artistic impulses."

 

[Wolf]

this isn't funny, I'm being serious. All of you, Just quit posting here and leave me alone.. :/ I'm done.

 

[PopClick]

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

All the things that I needed
And wasted my chances
I have found myself wanting

When my mother and father
Gave me their problems
I accepted them all

Nothing ever expected
I was rejected
But I came back for more

And my ashes drift beneath the silver sky
Where a boy rides on a bike but never smiles
And my ashes fall over all the things we said
On a box of photographs under the bed

I will stay in my own world
Under the covers
I will feel safe inside

A kiss that will burn me
And cure me of dreaming
I was always returning

And my ashes find a way beyond the fog
And return to save the child that I forgot

And my ashes fade among the things unseen
And a dream plays in reverse on piano keys

And my ashes drop upon a park in Wales
Never-ending clouds of rain, and distant sails​

 

[Wolf]

made me laugh..

Sorry PopClick for hurting your feelings..

 

[Wolf]

All the things that I needed
And wasted my chances
I have found myself wanting

When my mother and father
Gave me their problems
I accepted them all

Nothing ever expected
I was rejected
But I came back for more

And my ashes drift beneath the silver sky
Where a boy rides on a bike but never smiles
And my ashes fall over all the things we said
On a box of photographs under the bed

I will stay in my own world
Under the covers
I will feel safe inside

A kiss that will burn me
And cure me of dreaming
I was always returning

And my ashes find a way beyond the fog
And return to save the child that I forgot

And my ashes fade among the things unseen
And a dream plays in reverse on piano keys

And my ashes drop upon a park in Wales
Never-ending clouds of rain, and distant sails​

sorry to you too, I'm just hurt, my writing has nothing to do with you, or PopClick, you are just innocent bystanders to my insanity..
You are privy to my petty relationship that will never come to light, or never happen...and I have to come to terms with that.
I'm an idiot..

I don't want to gain anything from my writing, I just want them to disappear,
I really wish I didn't exist, or at least I got hit by a bus or something and died.. and I really wish I didn't hurt so much. If you guys are really my friends,
you should at least give me a little dignity..

 

[Wolf]

I finally met up with "my guy",
It was a nice meeting,
he introduced me to his fiance', with whom he
is so very madly in love with,
she is very beautiful by the way, and very sweet,
she is a lot like him, and makes him laugh,
she fits his society and mold, a lot better than
I ever would. I can see why he chose her over me.

You see, he was seeing me in secret
while he was with her, that's why I was so mad.
but he apologized and I told him I forgave him,
he made me a promise that he would let me go,
and move on with his life....and he did.

He told me he was finally happy with her,
he just didn't want to let me down, because he was
worried about me. I told him that I was okay,
everything would be fine.

I only want him to be happy. I meant that.

we spent the day together,
just talking as friends.
It was just as I thought it would be,
we said our goodbyes and I came back.

I was a little mad at first but I'm healing now,
as you can see in my rants...

I suppose it is better this way.

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

I don't want to gain anything from my writing... I really wish I didn't exist, or at least I got hit by a bus or something and died.. and I really wish I didn't hurt so much.

Honestly... me too. /hug

If you guys are really my friends,
you should at least give me a little dignity..

What would you like us to do? This thread means something to me, but I will relinquish it if that's what you're asking. I hope you don't lean too heavily on preservation of dignity, is all; it will always disappoint.

And although you don't need to be sorry/apologize to me, thank you for the gesture. Your heart shows ─ Edit: Just saw the post come in about your encounter. Good for him, and good for you! Partings are bittersweet sorrow, indeed...

 

[Wolf]

Honestly... me too. /hug

hey get your own pity party, this is mine lol

honestly, you have no idea what you are talking about, I don't hear you crying around about being the other woman,
at least you can say you have a real relationship. I'm sure you have at least held hands, or you have given her a flower,
or you weren't ever ashamed to be seen with your girlfriend. I have nothing...don't assume or try to relate, I feel completely worthless..

What would you like us to do? This thread means something to me, but I will relinquish it if that's what you're asking. I hope you don't lean too heavily on preservation of dignity, is all; it will always disappoint.

And although you don't need to be sorry/apologize to me, thank you for the gesture. Your heart shows ─ Edit: Just saw the post come in about your encounter. Good for him, and good for you! Partings are bittersweet sorrow, indeed...

I would like you to let it go,

Please don't talk to me about dignity, you don't know what you are talking about.. But I won't waste my energy trying to explain if it means nothing to you.

ahh...who cares... If I hear him cry around about this I'm gonna throw up in his face

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

Well, there be my two cents.

 

[Wolf]

I messed up...
I know its me,
I'm just not strong enough,
I know this is humiliating for you,

I try to 'fix' the situation, because I think I know whats best..
I try to lie, stretch the truth, or find reasons to blame you..
I'm just as much to blame as you.
No matter how good I am, I am no better than you,

we are the same,

You are not lower than me..

it's not what you've done, just whats in my own mind,
my fears that I was fighting for this alone in this, and you were never with me.
I...just didn't know if you loved me anymore..
I couldn't tell..

maybe I needed to know you were with me, and you believed in it,
I just needed that encouragement..

I'm sorry.

I wanted to give you something, if I ever got a chance to see you,
a keepsake, it's what has been keeping me holding onto you..
Why is that so evil...for me to hold on, when you hold on to me?

Its hard to tell how you feel about me,
I'm sorry for putting you through this ...for the thousandth time.​

 

[Wolf]

Last word

What I said doesn't mean a continuation of this thread,
it is just a way of apologizing to him that is all..

Don't feel so bad that this thread doesn't continue with more
love songs, if you feel the need to reminisce
then go back a few hundred pages and you'll see plenty of love songs.

I just feel it best to let the thread go,
so healing and restoration can happen.

Please do not reply what I said here with a poem or a song,
or I will be deeply disturbed, and chase you around
the block like a rabbid dog...

- Lowanla (me)

P.S. The last word, shall be mine. O_O​

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

Take care, Lovesong. You too, ChopStick. I will be bowing out of CC for awhile - battling my own demons, as it were. Life sure threw me a curve ball...

For those willing: http://christianchat.com/prayer-requests/67761-heartbroken.html

God bless.