I lied..
I lied about seeing "my guy", and his so called 'fiance', I don't think he has one.. I haven't even went to see him, I just thought this would be a good way of fixing the situation..I made up all those things, cause I don't really know..
Honestly I am just going about him in blind faith, everything has been by faith, that he loves me, is faithful,
or that he even cares about me at all,
I just got so tired of being alone, thinking that he was just playing with my mind...it felt that way ...all the time..
and it was torment at times..
Its wrong of me to falsely accuse him of things he didn't do, when I don't even know that he did it...so I am sorry,
for my guy...
I am sorry, I lied, I never even had a boyfriend either, I actually got the name "james" from James bond, (I'm lame I know..lol), my parents gave me that tiara, lol... I'm so scared I can't even go out and meet anyone...I freeze up, your my only real connection
I don't know why you would ever love me, or if you ever want to be with me, but I love you, I don't want to do anything you don't want to do, I don't want to force you to do anything, I want you to be happy,
I don't know if I can make you happy, I do know that I really want to see you...I dream about it every day,
I don't care if I have to change for it, or rearrange everything just for you, I will try, because its important to you,
I love you.