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I have a bad feeling about one of my gigs this Saturday. It's through an agent and she's definitely not acting very professional. She lost the number for the other artist she hired, and had to email me for it. She is racking up extra expenses and seems unconcerned about what anything will cost (a red flag for a check-bouncer) and I have trouble believing that the deposit she was supposed to have sent weeks ago got lost in the mail. Ugh... Part of me wants to just bail out now, but it would leave the other artist in a bad spot. This is either going to be a very rewarding job, or a total scam with me as the loser. I hope it's the former. Me no like getting stiffed at payment time. -_-
 
MrHonest

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I've matured mostly because God has been the growth in my life. I remember Jilly helping me back when I was new to this site and she told me I should pray for the Holy Spirit and I have to say it worked and months later I got baptized and now I feel awesome thanks to God providing all that I needed and more so from moment to moment. I have now read all the new testament and I'm on 2 Samuel and I'm so attached to reading the Bible daily it feels thrilling every time I read it. It feels amazing and beautiful knowing that my King has put these words just for me, us. Thank You Lord! Thank You Jesus! Its a unique emotion to realize that my personality has changed and I don't fear speaking in front of people like I used to and I haven't done anything by pray and ask God for help which the world would say would not help for changing a personality or public speaking because I'm making myself an introvert but in fact this is the example of Gods miracles and Him being the Growth that will change who we are by relying on Him. Thats what is going through my thoughts and I'm sooooooooo happy. I feel sooooo much wiser than I used to be although to many I may seem like the same guy ;)
 
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Awesome, Randy :)! It helped me so much to ask to be filled with the Holy Spirit that I try to mention it to others whenever it seems prudent. I'm so glad it helped you so much in your walk with the Lord and in talking to others :).
 
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lil_christian said:
You know when you wanna move? When you're freaked out by the people outside screaming "WHAAA?!" and something like "OORRR/ERR" at midnight.... o_O I'm just glad God protects my family from all the creepy people in my neighborhood. Yeesh. o_O
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nope, just found pic on the 'net, jill. :)

You are right on one account though, I got crocs, got'em on the day of this year that you PM'd me with two gorgeous green cakes. :) I ate both of them, by the way :D

Silly jilly, I only wear make-up when I've been in church productions like 'Heavens Gates And Hells Flames' and our church's Christmas program. :) I do look quite dashing with rouge on, I must admit, I glow :D
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Hehe, I meant the green flipflops the mime was wearing, Ed; not the petal pink and espresso Meleen Crocs :D. Also, I'm sorry to hear that you ate your shoes; I hope you made it to the emergency room in time.

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Holy Moly! nearly 2 pages of so many things I want to respond to,but I am brain fried after a hellish day of dealing with over 100 patronizing ,rude,..I mean...ahem..ummm..I mean blessings & children of God. I will give all this more though tomorrow. Headed to my recliner to doze off to Darth Maul Shadow Hunter on audio book. I shall return,unless the Lord find it fitting to take me whilst I slumber. If I cannot have cupcakes then what's the point in goi
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Jim, please don't feel like you have to act like they weren't being rude when they actually were. Though not approaching the gates of the place of the netherworld, dealing with people is the kind of thing that you often have to thank the Lord for (since He said to and it makes you feel better) without lying to yourself and acting like they were nice when they weren't. Maybe we should pray and ask that they'll have to taste Cristen's food as punishment for being rude to you :D.




Hmm, I hope that didn't sound condescending; I don't want to be on the rude people list, but I'm sort of sleep-posting this :).
 
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My reputation as a terrible cook is spreading quite far...

Good. Because when you know, you can avoid it.

...knowledge is power!

I should go back to sleep :/
 
lil_christian

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Ha, I wish I could go back to sleep, and I just woke up. >.<

Where's my coffee? *yawn*
 
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Last night I had a dream that seems super symbolic. I don't remember what happened, but I somehow got a big piece of glass stuck in my side. It was deep, and it hurt (and even after I woke up, it felt like it hurt and I even touched my side just to see). I bled a lot, and I was stumbling/walking on the road, towards the hospital. The ambulance was coming, but I started walking to see if I could get there faster. I felt so weak. But it seemed my friends didn't really care that much, or they didn't notice. I can't remember if I was trying to hide the glass or make it seem like no big deal. It was just very vivid, and my friends weren't some random dream-people, they were specific people in my life that I know.

It seemed symbolic in that I fear people don't care about my pain, or they don't notice because I'm trying to hide it? I don't know. I know my friends care about me. I guess it's a fear that I'm a burden or something.
 
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rachelsedge said:
Last night I had a dream that seems super symbolic. I don't remember what happened, but I somehow got a big piece of glass stuck in my side. It was deep, and it hurt (and even after I woke up, it felt like it hurt and I even touched my side just to see). I bled a lot, and I was stumbling/walking on the road, towards the hospital. The ambulance was coming, but I started walking to see if I could get there faster. I felt so weak. But it seemed my friends didn't really care that much, or they didn't notice. I can't remember if I was trying to hide the glass or make it seem like no big deal. It was just very vivid, and my friends weren't some random dream-people, they were specific people in my life that I know.

It seemed symbolic in that I fear people don't care about my pain, or they don't notice because I'm trying to hide it? I don't know. I know my friends care about me. I guess it's a fear that I'm a burden or something.
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I was going to make a different post, but I didn't think it would be right without acknowledging yours first. Your summation of your dream was exactly what I was thinking. It's good that you are able to do that. Seeing the concern is an important first step in remedying it to your satisfaction. There is no right or wrong answer here, just to be able to find a way to be at peace with it.
 
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KJV15John11

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Now for mine which seems so much less important than others. When I heard about the new Thor movie, I had zero interest in it. Now that I see that Natalie Portman is returning, my interest has gone up slightly. Maybe not enough to see it at the theatre, but definitely at Redbox for. $1.25.
 
lil_christian

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Just thinking over last night again. It's amazing how loved I am on here. :) If I was the type to cry easily, I probably would have teared up. :p
 
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Do you ever...look in the mirror and not even recognize the person looking back at you? I know, what a horribly over-used cliche, but it's over-used for a reason. Sometimes, it's the best way to explain something.

Today, that's the only way I can describe what I feel.

I thought I was okay now...so I let my guard down. Nobody's fault but my own, but still, it happened and now it's my job to fix it, to...I don't even know. Can't be erased, can't be undone.

Life gets weird. Busy, and crazy, and then something happens and I get so wrapped up in it that I often don't realize until too late the kind of damage I'm causing. This time, I hope...I pray...that I am seeing it in time.

I don't want to do what I have to do. If I don't, then I'm the worst kind of hypocrite. If I do...pain.

I can only hope that it's only painful for me.
 
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jilly, I ate YOUR cakes you posted to me on my birthday way back when in September, I didn't eat no crocs, you funny duck, at least, I think, I'm pretty sure, that you were kidding :) Somehow, I think you knew what I ate, milady :)
And, yes, I was referring to the crocs picture, not the flip-flops of the mime waving at you. :)

If not, no worries, I often don't explain myself as well as I should.

In college , I had a great professor, I took one 'movie renaissance' class from him, I made up the course name, I can't remember it now, but, if I had done it myself, that's what I would have named it :D Anyway, this professor helped me speak more specific. Not saying I'm perfect, but I used to not do a good job of at all of attributing 'he' to the subject, or, of course, 'she,' since I always want to be politically correct for miladies :)
But, yeah, this prof taught me on of my best things learned of all my many writing classes taken and the movie class was one little night class credit. :)

What in tarnations (that word is for kentom) does 'meleen' mean, jilly? :D
 
Jilly81

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MissCris said:
Do you ever...look in the mirror and not even recognize the person looking back at you? I know, what a horribly over-used cliche, but it's over-used for a reason. Sometimes, it's the best way to explain something.

Today, that's the only way I can describe what I feel.

I thought I was okay now...so I let my guard down. Nobody's fault but my own, but still, it happened and now it's my job to fix it, to...I don't even know. Can't be erased, can't be undone.

Life gets weird. Busy, and crazy, and then something happens and I get so wrapped up in it that I often don't realize until too late the kind of damage I'm causing. This time, I hope...I pray...that I am seeing it in time.

I don't want to do what I have to do. If I don't, then I'm the worst kind of hypocrite. If I do...pain.

I can only hope that it's only painful for me.
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*hugs Cristen* Now to go in CatHerder's prayer thread and add one :).
 
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"Meleen" is just the name given to that style of Croc (Crocs?), Green. I couldn't find any meaning for the word Meleen other than a last name (admittedly, I abandoned the search rather quickly).
 
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longest day I've had in a while:

5:15 - wake up - work on some overdue work reports until 6:45
6:45 - goof off on CC for a little bit
7:00 - wake kid up - get her ready for school
8:00 - take said kid to school
9:15 - 3:15 working with an aggressive developmentally disabled person, trying out a new behavioral system for him that I created...mixed results. He became aggressive for the last few hours. My forearms are tender from blocking. Thankfully, he did not become aggressive during transport in my vehicle. I take the city roads with him, avoiding freeways. Still, it's scary.
4:00 - 4:15 back in office - at a meeting...I had to tell someone to let me finish my sentence twice because, apparently the middle of my sentence was interrupting the beginning of his.
4:15-5:00 - office work
5:30- home now - the piano student's dad did not get the message that I had to cancel lessons today. I feel bad that they came out this way.
5:35 - checked banking on line to make sure that I did not make a mistake that would result in $300+ in overdraft charges. I had not - mini heart attack averted.
NOW - more CC
6:00 - will be at last rehearsal for Rachmaninoff concert tonight - I feel to agitated to play Rachmaninoff, but hopefully that will change 10 minutes from now.
8:00 - concert
10:00 or so - finally home for good!

This is definitely a "Calgon" Day! :p
 
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My brother asked me today, why people can't just sign a paper and have a divorce over with. And it occurred to me that if it were easy, people would be getting divorced on a whim. That would result in a whole lot of havoc. I think it's a good thing divorces take so long and they're difficult. That way people have time to think about whether or not there really are "irreconcilable differences".
So today I got yet another section of my divorce taken are of, and I'll never have to deal with an abusive husband again :) I'm confident this will all be over by the end of December.
 
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Immawildthing said:
My brother asked me today, why people can't just sign a paper and have a divorce over with. And it occurred to me that if it were easy, people would be getting divorced on a whim. That would result in a whole lot of havoc. I think it's a good thing divorces take so long and they're difficult. That way people have time to think about whether or not there really are "irreconcilable differences".
So today I got yet another section of my divorce taken are of, and I'll never have to deal with an abusive husband again :) I'm confident this will all be over by the end of December.
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It should also take as long, if not longer, to get married, for the same reason. How many couples would not get married if they had to go through a similar process that foreigners have to to become US citizens?
 
rachelsedge

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I should stay away from reading news stories, yet I want to stay updated on what's going on in the world. But it makes me SICK, and upset. I can only imagine how God feels about it.
 
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Just watched 2011 version of Wurthering Heights. Very artistically depressing. I know that it's a classic, but man I don't think I could watch that again. Great scenery and deep feel to it tho.
 
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