I'm "okay with it" only because God has taught me this is my thorn. Annoying, however that's the characteristic of a thorn. And absolutely no way are you ever going to convince me salvation ever came through something I did.
Jesus was clear on it having nothing to do with "acting." He told us how we act. And then what he did with how we acted anyway. (John 3:16-21 nd John 6:35-40.)
I don't know if you noticed this about me or not yet, but I'm very opinionated, outspoken and heavy on the defiance. (Defiant of garbage, not of God.) I'll tell you why. Because somewhere along the line I got sick and tired of people telling me it's my fault I'm disabled (or the evil twin sister "God couldn't help it.") Do you have any clue what that LIE does to people new in the Lord? People newly disabled? (Hint: I came close enough to killing myself I figured out a way to do it that makes it look like an accident so my husband could get my $10,000 life insurance.) People struggling to make sense of it? To be told God is taking it out on us because we are lesser than?
And do you know who ALWAYS tell that lie? Either those who have never struggled with a disability or those who are but haven't figured it out yet, so they're buying whatever anyone hands over to them. THIS IS WRONG!
Want to know why God doesn't heal all his peeps? Because some of us are just cocky enough to go off and start preaching how well we healed ourselves! (At least one is on this thread.)
God keeps me disabled for the really obvious reason. Without being disabled, I'm just stupid enough to go off and think I only need God in a pinch, and today isn't that pinch. I'm disabled because God has graced me with a nonstop reminder that I need him constantly. Not for MY evil. Not for the evil of previous generations. Not because I don't trust God enough and just couldn't click my heels just right. Unmerited favor to constantly be reminded to seek him, because I'm just cocky enough to need that!
So, nope. Never going to buy the gospel is all about you's abilities and acts. And I wish you'd stop crushing people with that lie.
If I could see what I was writing as being a lie, I would stop and change, like the former ordained Baptist minister and his wife who turned atheist, did.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I have no problem admitting that I screwed up. Even as I did on this thread. I didn't say I like being or admitting that I was wrong, but I have changed my view on one or two things in the past.
The problem with that is that no one has been able to show or prove me wrong yet.
I haven't always believed as I do now. I used to believe as you and many others do.
But I sought God to know the truths with my who heart, without any outside influence or teachings from others. I am where I am, because of what I heard and what I was show in my prayers and meditations of God's word. I have been told and shown things that no one has ever taught, or at least, things I have never heard anyone teach on.
So if what I believe is way out in left field, then I is due to the voice and revelations I heard and received.
Most everything I received came with a scripture verses or two to back up what I heard, along with revelation knowledge of the verse sometimes.
A quick example would be when God literally roared at me for calling a man of God a liar.
He was talking about God taking him to heaven and he said all the aborted babies are there.
This was decades ago, and I called him a liar within myself, not out loud, using Jn 3:5 as my proof to prove him wrong.
Right then, and without any warning, I heard this screaming in my ears. It was extremely loud. Then, in a stern, yet toned down voice I heard, "My word says, except a MAN be born again...". And He stressed the word, man. Then He said to me, BABIES are NOT MEN!!! And that is how He put it to me, with the revelation of that scripture. That's the condensed version.
And perhaps you just passed over what I wrote or failed to pay attention to details.
I said I have been on BOTH sides of the faith fence, that includes the failing to receive side.
And no, I don't have any handicap, but because of what I believed about God responding to our faith, years ago, I almost lost everything and was ever so close to putting my family out one the street, literally. And when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING! Wife and children, along with the houses and vehicles I had at the time, with all our belongings gone. It came down to one day from losing it all.
I have had people I knew and close family members die on me.
I know what it is like to desire death and to contemplate suicide, as well. Years ago, I too thought of ways that I might end my life, because I failed to receive deliverances. I was a basket case.
But, unlike yourself and most on this forum, I didn't let my personal life's failed experiences or that of others, shape or form my doctrines or what I believe. To do so, would be to build your house on the sand.
The bible say, only those who continue in the word, will come to KNOW the truth, and when that time comes, THEN, and only then, will
the truth MAKE them free.
Most fall away from believing, because the word of God wasn't able take root in the stony ground of their heart. Such as yours. I say that, because you cannot receive the words that I have been writing.
Perhaps you think I have been saying that it is all me that is making things happen.
Not so. I never said I am doing any such thing, except agreeing with, believing, and acting on the word of God.
It is the word of God itself, or Himself, that does the work, even as He said He would.
When Jesus said that if we ask, call for, say, desire, crave, require anything in His Name, He WILL do it.
How do you think He does the work?
How do you think He created and upholds the worlds and all things?
It is done so by the Word of God itself.
It's not me or anyone else who does the actual work,
it is Jesus, who IS the Word of God, which is truth and is no lie.