I have lots of reasons to be depressed and suicidal. I'm 96, my family all dumped me, I'm in bed with a MRSA infection. But I don't feel at ALL like suicide, and that is because of what the Lord tells me.
Paul tells us that in whatever state we are in we are to be content. We are told to count our blessings We are told that God is love and we need to put on the spirit of God. A part of love is to accept. These are points I believe in, But that isn't enough. We have a subconscious mind that simply records everything and has much to do with our thoughts and actions.
In the Lord's Prayer we are told to ask for our daily bread, and of course that is bread on many levels. One level is the idea food we give our minds. That dirty book you read, that thought against your neighbor is all simply recorded and influences our thoughts and actions. The subconscious mind just accepts what it hears. So I am very careful of what I put in my mind I feed it good thoughts.
Congrats on making it to 96. I hope I will be as lucky to make it to 96 and I hope the same for my Tourist cause that would mean we would still have quite a few years to be married. Hope the Lord comes before then in reality. But prayers for you and I love it when I hear people are in their 90's. I have an ex-father-in-law who is going to be 93 this year and he is such a sweet soul. God bless you both.