Thats a mistake im a man. I am 71 and have history of childporn addiction. I havent looked at it for awhile but havent got rid of it. I collected it for 30 years. But now I see young girls in all kind of sexy outfits and i feel im slipping. I feel like ill never get over it. I dont have anyone to talk with about my addiction of young girls.
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I wish I could talk to someone about my feelings for young girls. There are moments im fine but others Im downloading enormes amound of CP and watch all night long for weeks. If only I could find someone that would talk to me about my obsession.
I'm sure you're very aware of this, and again, I'm not trying to criticize or condemn, but I'm sure you also know that what you are possessing and addicted to is highly illegal, at least here in the USA.
I see your profile says you are in Ukraine, where, according to Google, it is also illegal. I mention this because I had a former boss and a family member's pastor who were given prison sentences for what you describe (possession of CP.)
This makes the problem not only a spiritual and moral issue, but a legal issue as well. And seeing as it's a lifelong "obsession", as you have described, I think it's highly unlike you're going to be able to break it without help, perhaps on a professional level.
Do you have a trusted pastor you can talk to?
You seem to have at least a good mastery of communicating on the internet.
Have you looked up any resources for getting help with this?
Porn addiction is such a pervasive issue, I would guess there are several dedicated/specialized sites who are much better equipped (and know how to work within the legal codes) that could help?
I could be wrong about this, but for the legal issue alone, I personally would not advise talking to just anyone who would listen about this problem. And it's not because I am trying to somehow make you feel even more isolated or like you can't talk to anyone, but because what you're dealing with really requires a specialist who can navigate the legal boundaries of any such conversation.
I am going to pray that you will receive someone who is truly qualified to help you both legally and spiritually.