.It is apparent to me that you haven't come close to hitting rock bottom with this yet because if you had, you would be so disgusted with the control that porn has on you that you would do anything that it takes to quit.
Whoever said I didn't hate this. I know the damage it can do. That kinda has a lot to do with getting this taken care of.
You've already said you've been struggling with this since seventh grade, you are now 24. That's over 10 years that your way to recovery hasn't worked, yet somehow you still expect that your way is going to bring you success.
Yeah, that's because I was trying to beat based off of my own goodness. But trying to be right on your own only births more sin. Romans 7:5–8 I've been trying to a new method over the past few months. One where I'm on relying on Jesus to do the work. Matthew 11:28 I do still screw up, but I've notied that the times inbetween the screw ups have gotten longer.
As I have read through numerous threads
over a period of time that you post in, I can guarantee that your porn addiction, obsession with finding a woman, and inability to interact with women in a normal social situation are all related to the root emotional issue. Deal with the emotional issues and the rest will fall into place.
I know it is, and It's connected to my need for fellowship, not being lonely, and actually a fear of never having sex(after marriage of couse).