I think one of the biggest things I’ve gotten from posting this thread and reading all the responses is that yeah, I’m obviously not alone, but also that it’s “not on my time, it’s in God’s time”. So many times I have tried to do things on my own and wanted things to happen when I wanted them to happen, that I’d completely forget about what God wanted from me. Whatever it is I’m to do in life, maybe there isn’t a “Mrs. Engels” involved, maybe there is. But I’m learning not to focus so much on the worldly aspects of life and learning to lean more on God abs His understanding. If there is a “Mrs. Engels” involved, then I will meet her when the time is right, and as long as I keep myself attuned to the word of God in all things, then I will also recognize her when she enters my life.
After having come to this realization, I almost took this thread down, but decided I wanted to keep it up because if this can help even just one person, then that’s good enough for me. Even though I don’t personally know you all, thank you so much for your responses and replies, I love you all dearly and I know that God has a great future for all of us, we just need to keep listening and keep following. We’ll all get there! 😊