So, one thing that I struggle with all the time is interaction with people. I think this is compounded by the fact I haven't really associated with anyone I don't already know (or people who work at stores) in like the past 6 months. Which is hilarious, since my job before that was being a sort of announcer/educator for Butterfly Wonderland.
Yet when it comes to sharing the gospel, I am...just.....the worst. Unfortunately I think the biggest thing is that part of me doesn't want to. Not that I don't want people to be with Jesus, not that I don't want them to be saved! I do!! I really do! Just.....I am scared of people. And I don't want to be.
I know that there are huge ramifications of fearing people more than God. It's wrong. And it can cause me to fall big time. It's like.....I feel if someone was like "ARE YOU A CHRISITIAN!?!" I answer "yes of course" and then state my faith and all that. But me doing it by myself? I suck at it.
I think another big part is that I always pray that God will help save a person or that God will help my friends, but when it comes to me witnessing I think it has to be "GOD DID THIS FOR ME AND HE CAN DO THIS FOR YOU HEAR THE WORD OF THE LORD" like.....as opposed to just....showing them kindness and then saying "hey do you wanna go to my church?"
I kind of have a confused, fractured sense of what "witnessing" sorta entails. I know God can witness to a person's heart through that person's actions, reactions, their words, their relationships, ect.....I just....
Does any of my rambling make sense?
Yet when it comes to sharing the gospel, I am...just.....the worst. Unfortunately I think the biggest thing is that part of me doesn't want to. Not that I don't want people to be with Jesus, not that I don't want them to be saved! I do!! I really do! Just.....I am scared of people. And I don't want to be.
I know that there are huge ramifications of fearing people more than God. It's wrong. And it can cause me to fall big time. It's like.....I feel if someone was like "ARE YOU A CHRISITIAN!?!" I answer "yes of course" and then state my faith and all that. But me doing it by myself? I suck at it.
I think another big part is that I always pray that God will help save a person or that God will help my friends, but when it comes to me witnessing I think it has to be "GOD DID THIS FOR ME AND HE CAN DO THIS FOR YOU HEAR THE WORD OF THE LORD" like.....as opposed to just....showing them kindness and then saying "hey do you wanna go to my church?"
I kind of have a confused, fractured sense of what "witnessing" sorta entails. I know God can witness to a person's heart through that person's actions, reactions, their words, their relationships, ect.....I just....
Does any of my rambling make sense?