My Ex told me I was - "using Jesus as too much of a crutch." "Jesus, is good and all, but you need to blend into the world too," she would proclaim. What she failed to see was I was called to the world to love it, but not be apart of it. And I was, without doubt, fully dependent on Jesus, which made her nervous because she had her feet still on the shoreline in regards to Him. What she inferred then, by evil suggestion mindfully, was that I was too dependent on Jesus for every little detail of my life; thus my use of Him as a "crutch," thwarted my effectiveness in the world and our family. I was useless in the world to her, despite working and giving her a home and three boys by the grace of God. This was because the world was her first-fruit and not Jesus.
But God has promised me and all those who are dependent on Him, that we are not useless in the world, I am as Jesus was - separate from the world; even, absolutely so. Yet, I love the world unlike the world itself can, (and they do love each other)! But naturally so, they also have enmity towards God in the nature of sinfulness.
My wife left me literally because she was upset I couldn't balance worldliness and God to create an acceptable life by her standards. She wanted Jesus, but only by label not by world omission; thus, not by sin omission. That was too harsh. I was patient with her, as God was patient with me, and would have always been. But, I could not merge what I knew could never be merged. For to do that would only solidify me on the wrong side - death. Once you see the reality of truth you cannot submerge its authenticity.
"May I never boast except in the Cross of Our Lord Jesus Christ thru whom the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world." (Galatians 6:14). When the world comes before me with its fascination and its power, it finds me dead to it, but I have agreed with God on His judgement about sin and the world. These are not only statements, as she would proclaim and hope for, made in God's Book, they are real, definite experiences in my life. She calls it a crutch, as I expect Satan would feed her, but it is victory and nothing short of it. Victory wrapped in genuine unconditional love! May God still bless her, as for the time she has here, there will be hope. Pray for my Ex, and for my three boy's. They are my mission field, and one's who God has loved dearly before me. Thx.