Hello Alexaberdeen,
I also am fairly new to this site... not new to the Lord ... however I am walking in my calling.. currently I am married to my crazy Vietnam vet ..but that's OK I'm crazy too (also a vet from a different battleground ) lol ... he is my soul mate...
In my first marriage, I thought I had married a believer...he knew the Word ... he professed to know Jesus... I was young, innocent, and naive when I fell blindly in love with him... I stopped working and quit being a student at a major university... I became a stay at home mom to our (my) 4 sons... he would drug me then rape me allowing other men to do as they please... anyhow, he had various affairs... I too had broken our vows with two affairs... I was disgusted with myself and stop ... I told him the truth and he denied what he had done... at that point I became a born again Christian... I was Catholic only by name but never in my heart... nonetheless, he punished me until the day he died...he sold me to porn sites... drugged me ... gang raped me ... filmed it ... sold it... until they had perforated my uterus causing me to have an emergency hysterectomy ... although I did not know this was happening at the time my Spirit knew.... I prayed constantly... I could not even trust him with my boys....
When he died by his own hands it was a blessing... I do not say this with any hurt feelings, or bitterness, or anger...
The Lord is truly healing and restoring me!!!!!
I share this with you so that you may know that the Lord hears your prayers
He hears your cries
He knows your pain
Continue to seek Him first and foremost... ask Him if what I say is true.... ask Him if the advice you get is from He who created you...
He is always listening... 24/7
He answers all prayers, we just have to accept His answer...
well that's enough from me ... if you would like me to write a blessing to you then just ask
God bless