I struggle with similar thoughts I struggle with anxiety you need a plan of attack a strategy for one I know how you feel with ocd n stuff your thinking too much we woman think too much some of us anyway men are more doers. My suggestion you got to praise God when you don't feel like it bible readingclike that too get help tell strong Christians exactly what's going on in head what are the demons saying. Pray about the right doctor right meds God lead mum and I to increase my dosage like u I had one night where it was all too much honey lol OK gal has been there too we all have were we can't move on recognise what and discern what the lord is doingvin your life maybe started keeping a positive diary ofvprayers answered praise songs and talk to God about your day but focus on him That was cool when joesy did that with the cat God i really liked that you did that but at the moment your highly stressed God can deliver us from demons and heal our hear ts and minds while were on medication . you've really got to be careful who you listen to on CC some of them steer clear! There's a good bunch here they're friendly
So stressed out fearful - praise uplifting music on and really stop thinking at rimes allow the Holy Spirit to bring peace to you comfort and rest. Build your relationship with God
This was much wisdom advice I was given lord taught as a melancholy introvert a natural thinker and repenting still asking my loving Father tovtake all my fears and junk out to have times where I'm not thinking or praying to God with my thoughts.
For the next three weeks have a routine like : praise music on some time, maybe relax in a bath women love baths

and combat and work on your mind being renewed and we got to remember worship is a must a life for us as believers . have this plan write it down if u want ur speaking with someone who is going through similar and has been .
Once you've talked with particularly praying Christians, feel more encouraged maybe consider a part time job? I don't know you your family and God know whats best for you. I applying for one at the moment that's part time whatever you do just don't get one or more work right you've got to heal andcrecover for a while maybe even a month.
Let me / others how you get on. But can't stress enough positive praise destress baths walks and focus on that mind that is too alert rest give yourself some love and TLC. God bless hugs sis from NZ ruth