I always thought God was unfair to Job and to Joseph. I don't think Joseph's brothers deserved to be saved, except for the oldest one who didn't want to throw him in the pit.
I'm sorry for your troubles but mine were much more serious - my sister caused the death of someone in my family. She's EVIL. I can't understand why God doesn't take her out - she's still living at 67. Why? People die in their 60's and younger - why is the old witch still here to do more evil?
I am at a real crux in my faith. My brain feels like it's on fire - I know all the promises yet I'm SEEING something different. Scripture says "when the wicked are cut off YOU WILL SEE IT" but do I SEE IT? NO! This is what is tearing me apart. I believe in God - there's no way to UN-do it - but He seems cruel to me. I have despaired of life and have actually wanted to die - like Elijah - to get away from the emotional pain I felt and the lack of God's help. I didn't want to live in a world where God sat and watched as evil succeeded. Just like the Christian girl who was raped and turned from God. Why doesn't God act? So much evil has been done to my family & I - like we were a target of Satan. My husband even said "Satan must be afraid for you to use your gift" because I've been attacked so viciously. If I listed what has happened to us every year of our lives you would not believe it.
So when Magenta said God has a work for me to do I have always thought that - but so He's NOT going to protect my family and I as I do HIS work? I've evangelized - my ministry is leaving tracts everywhere - since that's how I was saved. And I was told I have the gift of discernment - but it's a painful gift. When the evil witch did evil to my child I could discern a triumphant spirit - an evil spirit - in her. I could see her evil eyes light up that she had done evil and gotten away with it. So this gift is PAINFUL. My brother told me she was jealous of me and wanted to see me have something bad happen. It worked - so why isn't God punished her and why isn't He showing me?
Every day is another day of pain - emotional and physical as I was badly damaged in an accident. But does God help me? No. I needed help with the medical bills and no money ever came through from the accident - my husband was stuck working 2 jobs. Then, even though I was badly mangled I was forced to return to work. I was setting a display and almost fainted. Where is God? I see others get settlements yet mine was withheld - and still is. I'm worried when this unemployment runs out because if I don't pay I don't get health care. It's another example of God not coming through for me.
Yes I am at a crux and the ball is in my court. I'm trying really hard to continue in my faith but am being tormented by doubts. How can you trust God who allows sick people to do sick things and then walk?
I met a woman online - a Christian - whose son was murdered on the way home from school. She had to go to his parole hearings every year to keep him in prison. WHERE IN THE HELL WAS GOD???? Why does she have to live with that? She always contacts me around Bryan's birthday because she said I'm the only one who understands. It's because I've been to hell too. And feel as if I'm still there.
It's easy to believe in God when things are going your way and no real tragedy strikes. My friend is like that - her life has been one of ease - she's never had the horrible hardships I've had. Her faith is strong and she's at peace - of course she is - nothing bad has ever befallen her. So she's a very good person but it hurts to talk to her because she has a kind of superior way about her - like I"m down in the dirt struggling and she's up above where no problems are. She's even been as Job's friends - blaming him for his problems. She has been a good friend and helped me through a bad time - but at a distance. She never went out of her way to visit when I went through multiple surgeries from the accident. But she always emailed me and listened as I struggled in my faith. But she would ignore my emails when I lay in bed for hours with no one to talk to. Then I'd email her weeks later and she'd answer - but it was always me emailing her. So she ignored my last email and I sat here by myself and thought if someone doesn't want to talk to me then so be it. So after about 5 months I guess she wondered what happened to me and she emailed me. I did the same thing to her: I ignored her email. So because I didn't answer her right away she emailed me again and asked what happened - so I ignored her again.
My youngest sister who was supposed to be my friend played both sides of the fence. Even though she knew the oldest did something unspeakably evil she kept talking to her. Yet I was the only one who ever visited her. When I was going through horrible surgeries she visited me in the hospital ONE time. Then that was it. Never called after major surgery...yet she called my KIDS. I had been through so much that I wasn't sure I was going to make it and I told her if anything happened to me I wanted her to be there for my kids. What a mistake! She had a deep problem as she's never had her own kids and she tried to step into my shoes while I was still here! She actually tried to sickly take over my family.
So let's get to my pastor. I did really like him -he's an easy going man. But I learned that he's a respecter of persons. He visited me in the hospital - which I appreciated. But then when we stopped going to church and supporting the church...his calls stopped and he refuses to talk to me.
So these are the types of sinful people I've been dealing with. Christians you say???? I hope some don't go to heaven. Some sins aren't as bad but some are EVIL. I see why people move in the middle of nowhere to get away from sinful people.
Mr. Perfect lawyer as my husband calls him - sits pretty with his reputation in the community - his rotten son sold mine drugs. Mine got in trouble and Mr. Lawyer's son got off - yet was a drug dealer.
IN ALL THESE THINGS I'M SCREAMING AT GOD WHY??????!!!!!!!!!
So where is God in all this? This is the flat out in your face evil smacking me and God does NOTHING.
I'm sorry for your troubles but mine were much more serious - my sister caused the death of someone in my family. She's EVIL. I can't understand why God doesn't take her out - she's still living at 67. Why? People die in their 60's and younger - why is the old witch still here to do more evil?
I am at a real crux in my faith. My brain feels like it's on fire - I know all the promises yet I'm SEEING something different. Scripture says "when the wicked are cut off YOU WILL SEE IT" but do I SEE IT? NO! This is what is tearing me apart. I believe in God - there's no way to UN-do it - but He seems cruel to me. I have despaired of life and have actually wanted to die - like Elijah - to get away from the emotional pain I felt and the lack of God's help. I didn't want to live in a world where God sat and watched as evil succeeded. Just like the Christian girl who was raped and turned from God. Why doesn't God act? So much evil has been done to my family & I - like we were a target of Satan. My husband even said "Satan must be afraid for you to use your gift" because I've been attacked so viciously. If I listed what has happened to us every year of our lives you would not believe it.
So when Magenta said God has a work for me to do I have always thought that - but so He's NOT going to protect my family and I as I do HIS work? I've evangelized - my ministry is leaving tracts everywhere - since that's how I was saved. And I was told I have the gift of discernment - but it's a painful gift. When the evil witch did evil to my child I could discern a triumphant spirit - an evil spirit - in her. I could see her evil eyes light up that she had done evil and gotten away with it. So this gift is PAINFUL. My brother told me she was jealous of me and wanted to see me have something bad happen. It worked - so why isn't God punished her and why isn't He showing me?
Every day is another day of pain - emotional and physical as I was badly damaged in an accident. But does God help me? No. I needed help with the medical bills and no money ever came through from the accident - my husband was stuck working 2 jobs. Then, even though I was badly mangled I was forced to return to work. I was setting a display and almost fainted. Where is God? I see others get settlements yet mine was withheld - and still is. I'm worried when this unemployment runs out because if I don't pay I don't get health care. It's another example of God not coming through for me.
Yes I am at a crux and the ball is in my court. I'm trying really hard to continue in my faith but am being tormented by doubts. How can you trust God who allows sick people to do sick things and then walk?
I met a woman online - a Christian - whose son was murdered on the way home from school. She had to go to his parole hearings every year to keep him in prison. WHERE IN THE HELL WAS GOD???? Why does she have to live with that? She always contacts me around Bryan's birthday because she said I'm the only one who understands. It's because I've been to hell too. And feel as if I'm still there.
It's easy to believe in God when things are going your way and no real tragedy strikes. My friend is like that - her life has been one of ease - she's never had the horrible hardships I've had. Her faith is strong and she's at peace - of course she is - nothing bad has ever befallen her. So she's a very good person but it hurts to talk to her because she has a kind of superior way about her - like I"m down in the dirt struggling and she's up above where no problems are. She's even been as Job's friends - blaming him for his problems. She has been a good friend and helped me through a bad time - but at a distance. She never went out of her way to visit when I went through multiple surgeries from the accident. But she always emailed me and listened as I struggled in my faith. But she would ignore my emails when I lay in bed for hours with no one to talk to. Then I'd email her weeks later and she'd answer - but it was always me emailing her. So she ignored my last email and I sat here by myself and thought if someone doesn't want to talk to me then so be it. So after about 5 months I guess she wondered what happened to me and she emailed me. I did the same thing to her: I ignored her email. So because I didn't answer her right away she emailed me again and asked what happened - so I ignored her again.
My youngest sister who was supposed to be my friend played both sides of the fence. Even though she knew the oldest did something unspeakably evil she kept talking to her. Yet I was the only one who ever visited her. When I was going through horrible surgeries she visited me in the hospital ONE time. Then that was it. Never called after major surgery...yet she called my KIDS. I had been through so much that I wasn't sure I was going to make it and I told her if anything happened to me I wanted her to be there for my kids. What a mistake! She had a deep problem as she's never had her own kids and she tried to step into my shoes while I was still here! She actually tried to sickly take over my family.
So let's get to my pastor. I did really like him -he's an easy going man. But I learned that he's a respecter of persons. He visited me in the hospital - which I appreciated. But then when we stopped going to church and supporting the church...his calls stopped and he refuses to talk to me.
So these are the types of sinful people I've been dealing with. Christians you say???? I hope some don't go to heaven. Some sins aren't as bad but some are EVIL. I see why people move in the middle of nowhere to get away from sinful people.
Mr. Perfect lawyer as my husband calls him - sits pretty with his reputation in the community - his rotten son sold mine drugs. Mine got in trouble and Mr. Lawyer's son got off - yet was a drug dealer.
IN ALL THESE THINGS I'M SCREAMING AT GOD WHY??????!!!!!!!!!
So where is God in all this? This is the flat out in your face evil smacking me and God does NOTHING.