I am new here. I’m not sure but I guess I’m here becauseI have no one else to talk to. I’m married. I have 3 kids I love very much. I am an older student in college. I am surviving but I live in an anxious state of mind. I’m always afraid and thinking people are out to get me. Mostly I don’t really think that but I do think they are so out for themselves I will be collateral damage. I even feel like God will get me sometimes. I feel like I am the only person I can trust. I hide as much of this as I can. I fantasize about living in the middle of nowhere by myself, drinking hot tea and watching the weather. That seems peaceful.
