So far I thought I'd been doing ok during this time. I felt ok, I had sad times but I'd be able to get through them. I was comforting and taking care of my daddy. Maybe I was prideful about how "well I was doing."
During our cancer consultation with Mayo about daddy's possibly getting to take part in a clinical trial, I broke down a little silently. My head hurt after and my eyes hurt from the pressure I'm assuming of the stress I felt. Today I felt suddenly horrible and tired without knowing why, then today I got upset about forgetting to juice for dad.
Then I kinda lost it. Sadly with my OCD/ADD I sometimes have had thoughts of hurting myself or others, or them getting hurt and me never seeing them again. I can usually kick them out of my head easily, but today I couldn't handle it. I fled to my dad and told what was happening, and we talked it out as well as I took some of my meds.
I feel better now but have been crying on and off. I'm thinking I need to perhaps go to a psychiatrist every week or two weeks and to deal with things I don't realize have been piling up.
During our cancer consultation with Mayo about daddy's possibly getting to take part in a clinical trial, I broke down a little silently. My head hurt after and my eyes hurt from the pressure I'm assuming of the stress I felt. Today I felt suddenly horrible and tired without knowing why, then today I got upset about forgetting to juice for dad.
Then I kinda lost it. Sadly with my OCD/ADD I sometimes have had thoughts of hurting myself or others, or them getting hurt and me never seeing them again. I can usually kick them out of my head easily, but today I couldn't handle it. I fled to my dad and told what was happening, and we talked it out as well as I took some of my meds.
I feel better now but have been crying on and off. I'm thinking I need to perhaps go to a psychiatrist every week or two weeks and to deal with things I don't realize have been piling up.