This is my last post, as I've heard all this before and my question remains unanswered. I had a change where I stopped drinking, having premarital relations, went to school and church Bible study every week, along with church every week. I had a emotional meltdown before I "found Christ"-like many reborn people do. I had gone to church every week with my family and had alwayd believed in god, but this was different. I was committed. Then I met someone who made me question my beliefs and I kept an open mind. Then I honestly seeked the truth. I now have peace of mind and soul, for once in my life. Science give the answers as to our origins and relatedness to all creatures. My boyfriend and my closest friends are atheists -we are very happy and free. Free to live this one life and appreciate every moment, because it's all we have. We are connected to each other biologically, the earth chemically, and the universe atomically. I am happier now than I've ever been, truly. Take the time to test your faith. I recommend "Letter to a Christian Nation" by Sam Harris. Best of luck.
I pray your eyes will be opened, for it is not perfection of this world that is sought, but the perfect.
For true faith in Jesus, brings this perfect, no longer does one live only in the world, but eternal, dead to the flesh and world now, and eternally alive now and in eternity through faith in Jesus.
If all you seek is the peace of the world, you may have it now, but it will pass away as all things do, for the world and flesh are not eternal and will return to ashes.
But if you seek peace now and eternal, and the love that makes the love that is of the world seem as nothing, dead.
Then in Jesus Christ is Lord come in the flesh, in the love that all who live in Jesus know, I pray you will keep seeking Jesus.
Jesus said, when you recieve me in faith, I place my spirit in you, so that you may die to flesh and sin with me, and be born eternal with me by my spirit.
No longer of flesh, but living in Jesus's spirit, thus eternal, His love, God Our Fathers love perfecting you , covered and washed by His grace, free of sin.
Its easy to set aside faith and live in flesh, the world, but these things will pass away.
But , to live in Jesus, eternally, wrapped in His love, well that is the good work, and more perfect and filled than anything the world can ever give.
The world cannot give this.
I dont know if this has helped you in any way, helped you recieve that tinyest mustard seed you seek , to call you in faith again, if there is still a part of you that is crying out, let me know dear Jesus, that you are there.
If in any way this has touched the heart of you that is hesitant to walk away from Jesus, I say this because I know that voice.
I didnt walk away, it has been so many years now since, that I have lost count, simply because I no longer count anymore.
Because Jesus was and is and will be, and I sought Him, even when I did not see Him.
I learned then, that one does not walk or see by sight, but by faith.
That is the truth that brings all that is God's love, Jesus's love, Hi Spirit, and all salvation and understanding to you.
And yes, He is all and more than you could even begin to hope for, and nothing the world can offer will ever come close to the joy of salvation and the love one knows in Jesus Christ is Lord come int he flesh.
I plead with you not to set aside the truth, salvation and perfect love of Jesus.
Mostly because He is, and is worth it!
Remember the story of the prodgical son?
How the son took his inhearitence and left, loosing all the inhearitance, finnally returning to his fathers home.
In hope he might at least be a slave ?
His father was watching for his return, rejoicing when the son did return.
You see, the son only lost the money, the money was never the true inhearitance.
The true inhearitance was the father's love, which could not be lost, it was always there, waiting for his return.
In Jesus, God bless
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