I lived as a legalist for about 25 years. Now, this was not my choice, but something imposed on me by my husband, who did not understand the gospel. It was about doing things to make other people think I was a "good" Christian. It was also the way he was raised. His mother's favorite saying was, "What will people think?"
During that time, I never turned my heart away from God. And that is what really counts. Not that I blindly "obeyed" my husband, wore modest clothing, or sang like an angel in church.
I woke up one day, and realized I was not growing at all in Christ, despite prayer, Bible reading and study, and church attendance and volunteering in various ministries. Because although I knew Jesus was in my heart, I wasn't following after him in a heart relationship, but I had grown in legalism, and pretending that I was a perfect Christian. (Which I was not!)
When I turned back to serving God, and worrying about what he wanted, my life turned around. I prayed a prayer, listening to a song based on Ephesians 1. That song was "Open the eyes of my heart, Lord"
"that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of him, [SUP]18 [/SUP]having the eyes of your hearts enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints," Eph. 1:17-18
God opened the eyes of my heart in amazing ways. He showed me verse after verse on how to live, how to serve him and serve others. Then he called me to Seminary, where I found godly professors and students, also hungry to know and serve God. Even my husband acknowledged that I had changed radically, like all the years of being legalistic had not. He wished I had told him 15 years earlier that God called me to Seminary, because it might have impacted our children more than our legalistic way of life.
In the end, we do need to obey Christ. But not out of an attempt to be outwardly pleasing to God, but because our heart relationship with Christ demands it. We love God, because he first loved us, while we were yet sinners. (Romans 5:8) That still applies after we are saved!
It means finding a way to serve God from our innermost being, not because of what we do, but because of what HE did, and continues to do.
Like Paul, I pray for everyone to understand the following:
"that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, [SUP]17 [/SUP]so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, [SUP]18 [/SUP]may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, [SUP]19 [/SUP]and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God" Eph. 3:16-19
When Christ dwells in our hearts through faith, then we are filled with ALL the fullness of God. Legalism doesn't matter, nor anything but the grace, goodness, and mercy of our living Saviour, Jesus Christ!
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