Amen!! I thank Him for His Grace and Mercy, I thank Him for what He did.
The forgiveness was already granted, I don't need, and I don't think He wants me to continually ask for something that He paid a REALLY high price to give!! "He's like alright already, I already did that move on OY Vey!!" (Just kidding).
But on a serious note, for me to continually go back and request something that has already been given seems too light, almost a denial of trust.
I trust in complete forgiveness now. God I trust you, and rely on you, and I thank you and I love you. Sorry just isn't enough !! I am sorry, but He already understands that.
I don't know, its really tough to put in words, but I know that my God truly loves me, and that He doesn't hold my sin against me, and that He wants to walk with me, and me with Him. Its so amazingly awesome, that if I trap myself in this sin, repent, obey, sin, repent, obey cycle, then I lose sight of who He is and what He has done for me, I condemn myself and drift away from Him. And I do NOT want that anymore.
Does that make ANY sense to anyone??
It makes perfect sense. Listening to people the emotional side of life, what motivates us
to do certain things and not others seems to be ignored, so when you focus on the symtoms
of a broken life without love, not surprisingly they keep on occurring.
Deep things in life are knowing you are loved, holding bad feelings about your family, hiding
a deep rejection and lack of self worth. The feelings generate drive people to depression,
suicide, drugs, alcohol, addictive behaviours etc.
If one approaches God with a check list it all fails. It is so much more profound, encompassing.
The more you let love flow in your heart the more these wrinkles disappear.
Once you know you are loved, it changes things. You can be more honest and open, not be
afraid of getting hurt. Even allowing oneself to be hurt to carry others.
A child when it learns to walk, it is learning about everything and how it all works together.
If we are not honest, pure and open, we will just get lost and do more harm than good,
closed down and feel defeated. If some have grown up in unloving environments, there
are many things they need to learn how to experience and grow into despite where they
came from. God makes this possible. It is stunning, but there are no limits to what we can
learn.