I do know that I chose to walk in the light and can choose at anytime to quit. I have seen others that walked in the light for 20 -30 years only to fall away over some circumstance.
Seabass, how can you be walking in the light and post such darkness?
You seem to be in such darkness that you deny the plain reiterated promise of God, namely eternal life for the believer. It appears that you most willfully chose to walk in darkness.
1 John 2 has a marvelous eternal security passage which explains apostates as never having been in the Body of Christ. If they had been of the Body of Christ they would have remained. To be sure many unsaved church members profess to be Christian; they may attend services regularly & participate in their denominational hocus pocus. Many may say, Lord, Lord; but get the retort "I NEVER knew you. " Not that He once knew them, but now no longer. It is I NEVER knew you! You have no way of knowing who is a true child of God & who is not; though fruits give an indication, like apostasy.
Let he who denies that the Lord is the Savior, making Him a mere "chance-giver," repent and trust Christ as Savior.
Here is light:
Thou shalt call His name Jesus, for He shall save His people from their sin.
I give them eternal life, & they shall never perish.
"The way of the wicked is as darkness,
They do not know at what they stumble."
Prov 4:19
He was in the world, and the world was made through him, and the world did not know him.
Jn 1:10
And this is the judgment, that the light is come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the light; for their works were evil.
Jn 3:19
they may be without excuse: because that, knowing God, they glorified him not as God, neither gave thanks; but became vain in their reasonings, and their senseless heart was darkened. Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools,
< Rom 1:21
And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled in them that perish: in whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of the unbelieving, that the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should not dawn
upon them.
2 Cor 4:3-4
< Eph 4
as the Gentiles also walk, in the vanity of their mind,being darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the hardening of their heart;