Dear mama, I feel for you. It is not easy to be a mother with the fruit of the Holy Spirit. And that is why I need my redeemer & savior everyday. It is truly a lifelong calling to minister to our family and I'm grateful for that. Our good good Father God never requires us to be perfect, but just to be faithful. I'm sure you are faithful in many of your ways and blessing your family the best as you can. Well done good & faithful servant! Cast your anxious thoughts to Him and He will cover you with His unfathomable peace each day. Big hug to you sister!