Brother there are more than 300 replies, go and read some you have ignored many, don’t be impatient. Impatience made Saul rejected, and Saul made a grave mistake. So you too just take your time, nobody is forcing you to get married by 30. Get your priorities right, and please don’t be ignoring the 100’s of advices here brother, take your 45 minutes, before bed. And before that 45 get 5 minutes to pray and before that 5 minutes get 30 minutes to know the Lord, by reading scripture. Allow these things to sink deep, the most that has effected you to sink deep in your heart, look for ways and times you can apply into your life, including the scripture you will read. Don’t be so concerned with a wife, God has His time. You can’t rush God, and nobody is rushing you. So first get your priorities straight then you can start thinking of a wife more seriously, and ask your parents if you want of how marriage is, you said you guys are Like strangers, maybe your bond can get stronger, but put God first. but still you have free will, i encourage and warn you to be more serious about putting God first. God loves you, so be More better with Him, then you Can think of a wife.