I gave up on finding a mate.

[JesusFreak1992]

Honestly I'm not sure why this thread keeps going. lol

I don't ever think I'll be "strong enough" in Christ, or confident. For me to be confident, would be a lie to everyone. My whole personality would need to be changed in order to be confident.

It probably keeps going because you can always use help with this subject? Anyone does really.

 

[Seeking-Christ]

It probably keeps going because you can always use help with this subject? Anyone does really.

I don't hardly have time to put into this kind of conversation anymore. I'm just going to stop watching it. Hopefully other people will get the help they need. At this point in my life, I'm too far gone for this sort of information to help me. It's completely up to God to do or don't do something.

 

[Donfightsforchrist1980]

It isn't that I don't have a desire for a mate. I'm just trying to be realistic. Women don't want me, and I can't blame them. I'm probably ugly to look at, and my personality isn't what they desire. Not to mention my mental and physical problems too. It seems to me that nobody really cares about honesty, and loyalty. People want a lot of flash! Something that makes them feel good. If they feel good enough then they might think they are in love or something... But I think, after 19 Plus years of hoping, it's time to give up on that hope. I recently wrote a poem called "I am the rejected one: Jesus Please take me home". There is a couple of ideas going on here. I said as an explanation: This poem is inspired by 42 years of rejection by my pears. That's true! I always had a hard time fitting in. But all this rejection I've been feeling from the internet, and work. Plus I don't feel like I'm useful to Jesus, and I'm not sure just how much longer I'm going to be useful to my parents too. I wish Jesus would just call me home.

I don't have the poem anymore. But last year, I was thinking about this stuff, and maybe a little more. I wrote a poem about it. I sorta took and a Calvinistic approach of "Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated". Then I applied it to myself, and said "I'm rejected from birth, I have no worth." Probably the saddest and maybe even the most disturbing poem I have ever written. I tried sharing it with a few people in real life and then i ripped it up and threw it away.

I just wanted to put this out there, publicly, that I gave up on finding a mate.

YOU ARE LOVED BY JESUS FOREVER! AND I AGREE THAT PEOPLE SEEM SO FOCUSED ON OUTWARD APPEARANCES! I PRAY THAT WE BOTH FIND THE PERSON GOD HAS FOR US - THE PERSON WHO'LL SEE US APART FROM OUR ABILITIES!!! GOD BLESS!!!! <3

 

[Lanolin]

I walk over 10,000 steps on thinly carpeted concrete. I'm not the only janitor that has feet problems.

Custodian, Janitor, Caretaker, Groundskeeper, whatever you want to call us, the job varies in size and duties depending on where you work.

well so does everyone else
not many people ever get the luxury of sitting down when they are working, just wear comfy shoes, even if they have to be ...crocs

or doc martens with the bouncy soles.

 

[Lanolin]

regarding confidence

I remember was in a job where the boss would say be more confident and at the same time he would undermine it lol (cos he was a perfectionist)

the thing is YOU know what you are doing even if nobody else does.

 

[Seeking-Christ]

well so does everyone else
not many people ever get the luxury of sitting down when they are working, just wear comfy shoes, even if they have to be ...crocs

or doc martens with the bouncy soles.

I'm doing everything humanly possible to help my feet.

I see a foot doctor, who makes me special insoles. The shoes are 120 dollars. The insoles are 500 dollars. I buy new shoes about every month. Sometimes i haft to take anti-inflammatory medication for my feet too.