Midnight Confessions

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I don't even know how I found this page. My husband past away 2 years ago. I have been a Christian for 35 years and had a incredible conversion. Now I'm so blow away by my husbands death that I just smoked a joint, drank too much wine and have no desire to live. I don't need to be hit over the head with the Word of God. I beat myself enough as it is.

Beanie, I'm so sorry about your loss. I know you don't want scriptures, but I will tell you something that helps me when I'm dealing with something.

Give God all of your feelings, your memories, grief, heartache, and everything else. Tell Him exactly what you're feeling, and just... give it to Him. If it's strange to imagine giving someone something so intangible, you can imagine putting your cares in a box and leaving it at the foot of the cross.

Jesus loves you, I mean He REALLY loves you. If you lean on Him, I promise you that He will hold you up. He really is all you need. I hope this helps, even if only a little bit. And you're welcome to PM me if you want someone to talk to.

 

[tourist]

I took my son's last juice box because I couldn't resist the child-sized serving of deliciously cold apple juice, even though I have some cranberry-cherry juice in the fridge.

...that seemed like it needed confessing.

You sound like a bad person! Actually, I hold mothers in very high esteem.

You did the right thing confessing. I sincerely appreciate your courage and honesty. By the way I drank the cranberry-cherry juice. My bad.

 

[MissCris]

You sound like a bad person! Actually, I hold mothers in very high esteem.

You did the right thing confessing. I sincerely appreciate your courage and honesty. By the way I drank the cranberry-cherry juice. My bad.

*gasp*
How could you?!

 

[Angela53510]

Midnight Confessions is an apt name for my own confession, which is that I stay up too late at night, and sleep too late in the mornings. Like you, I want to change, but not enough to actually do it.

You got mine, too!

 

[MidniteWelder]

Leave me out of this!

 

[tourist]

Another Midnight Confession: I am at a most serious crossroad on my life's journey. Perhaps I am a coward as I am fearful of taking a baby step forward, as the direction I will take is a one-way road and there is no going back. Or, maybe I am just being analytical.

 

[tourist]

For those that do not know me I will save you the trouble by just coming right out and saying it that I am a jerk. I am very sorry for all of those that I may have hurt by my insensitive posts. Every time I meander off the beaten path I seem to hurt people. I am disappointed in myself and God is disappointed in me as well. At least we have those bases covered.

 

[MissCris]

It's somewhere in the ballpark of midnight, and something's been on my mind for a while.
My best friend over the last 15 years makes me incredibly jealous. To the point where sometimes I feel physically ill. Of course she has no idea, and she obviously doesn't do it on purpose.
I've just always thought that she is so stinking pretty. Tall and willowy and blonde. It makes me sick.
But it doesn't.
But it does.
*sigh*

 

[tourist]

It's somewhere in the ballpark of midnight, and something's been on my mind for a while.
My best friend over the last 15 years makes me incredibly jealous. To the point where sometimes I feel physically ill. Of course she has no idea, and she obviously doesn't do it on purpose.
I've just always thought that she is so stinking pretty. Tall and willowy and blonde. It makes me sick.
But it doesn't.
But it does.
*sigh*

I understand full well jealously issues. Trust me on this.

 

[TheAristocat]

striations.

Now I feel ~`*enlightened*`~

I would post a confession, but I'm afraid of them. Is that a confession? o_o

 

[tourist]

Now I feel ~`*enlightened*`~

I would post a confession, but I'm afraid of them. Is that a confession? o_o

Not even close.

 

[tourist]

I'm a mess as well, but that's what makes God's glory even more beautiful!

I struggle with lust, impatience, getting easily offended, anger, lack of self confidence.

But through the love of Christ He is slowly transforming me and displaying what it means to live in His love everyday. Thank you God!

You are a beautiful awful mess!!

 

[tourist]

I have to learn how to let go of what does not belong in my mind and in my heart. I have to be open to God's encouragement and discernment as to what to discard and what is worth keeping. What lives and what dies. There is a time and a place for everything but not everything is profitable and most is vanity. I pray for the wisdom to understand these differences and the courage to act.

 

[tourist]

I was very callous today in a response to someone and for that I am sorry. There is no excuse for mistreating someone who is probably hurting worse than myself. I do not know what is wrong with me some days.

 

[Rush]

I ate 1/2 a tub of connoisseur belgium chocolate icecream tonight.... It will take approximately 3 hours to work off on the cross trainer tomorrow if i keep my heart rate up above 150.... Worth it.. totally worth it!!

 

[tourist]

I ate 1/2 a tub of connoisseur belgium chocolate icecream tonight.... It will take approximately 3 hours to work off on the cross trainer tomorrow if i keep my heart rate up above 150.... Worth it.. totally worth it!!

Anything worth doing is worth doing well. I'm a Ben & Jerry's man myself, but that's just me. Skip the cross trainer and enjoy life. That is what I am trying to do but these days it has been a struggle. I feel lost at times, maybe one day someone will find what is left of my heart and try to put the pieces back together. Probably need a tube of super glue. Honestly.

 

[Rush]

Anything worth doing is worth doing well. I'm a Ben & Jerry's man myself, but that's just me. Skip the cross trainer and enjoy life. That is what I am trying to do but these days it has been a struggle. I feel lost at times, maybe one day someone will find what is left of my heart and try to put the pieces back together. Probably need a tube of super glue. Honestly.

Oh dude, the splintered/divided heart dilemma... i wondered for years how to fix that one. Spent about a decade thinking it would just be too hard and take dealing with too many people i didn't want to deal with.
Well, I didn't have to. I had to trust, which was a painful and near impossible quest for me then. But I just started verbally praying the portions of my heart over to God that I could identify as being defended like a fortress: my ability to trust, my care to love people, the desire for companionship, my ability to feel loved etc. It wasn't an all in one night kinda deal. God kept identifying things as I kept being more and more open... but it wasn't me who healed, or anyone else. It was God, and although it was hard, it was really easy.

One day down that road I had an encounter with the Lord, and after not being able to feel loved for many years, he opened his heart to me and let me feel his tangible love. It was so real it was like a blanket, so large and all encompassing it filled me until it spread out across everything in time and space (weird i know, but it was really epic). - It was a real blessing for me because I've done lots of naughty things in my past... there are drugs that can trick your brain into releasing chemicals that create love, really good drugs... but nothing has ever compared to that moment when God came to town and showed me what love was all about

God bless my brother

 

[tourist]

One day down that road I had an encounter with the Lord, and after not being able to feel loved for many years, he opened his heart to me and let me feel his tangible love. It was so real it was like a blanket, so large and all encompassing it filled me until it spread out across everything in time and space (weird i know, but it was really epic). - It was a real blessing for me because I've done lots of naughty things in my past... there are drugs that can trick your brain into releasing chemicals that create love, really good drugs... but nothing has ever compared to that moment when God came to town and showed me what love was all about

God bless my brother

I was on that same desolate road and I still am and now I am getting tired. We must have past each other in the dark of night. God has shown to me also what love is all about. You hit the nail on the head on your last sentence. When I tried to hit the nail on the head my aim was off and I smashed my thumb. I guess that I am a klutz on matters of the heart, or at the very least, awkward.

God Bless You too my brother. You will have a safe journey because you allowed the love of God to be placed in your heart so deeply that there is nothing that can snatch it away. May it be fruitful as well.

 

[secularhermit]

I was on that same desolate road and I still am and now I am getting tired. We must have past each other in the dark of night. God has shown to me also what love is all about. You hit the nail on the head on your last sentence. When I tried to hit the nail on the head my aim was off and I smashed my thumb. I guess that I am a klutz on matters of the heart, or at the very least, awkward.

God Bless You too my brother. You will have a safe journey because you allowed the love of God to be placed in your heart so deeply that there is nothing that can snatch it away. May it be fruitful as well.

Don´t get tired, brother!

Love is an enduring and long journey! It only ends when WE feel sad or discouraged.

I don´t even dare to count on those shadows around loneliness ("We must have past each other in the dark of night.")

 

[tourist]

Don´t get tired, brother!

Love is an enduring and long journey! It only ends when WE feel sad or discouraged.

I don´t even dare to count on those shadows around loneliness ("We must have past each other in the dark of night.")

Thank you sir for your kind words. I will bravely soldier on because that is what I was called to do. God is with me also in this desolate place. He has the map and knows the way out. All I need to do is to follow him.