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I could understand a 9 year old liking Harrys potter. But a 37 year old, somethings out of kilter. There is illusions that mean use called magic and then there is demonic activity. At 37, I would say that you are involved in demonic activity. However, The cross of Christ can set you free. There is no power that is above the name of Jesus. Call on His name and He will set you free.