Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[just_monicat]

well, today i went to see my new sports med dr who i was referred to since i'm not healing well/quickly and it was a very eye opening experience. he basically broke my pleasant bubble of denial as to how bad things are and that i'm going to have to make some serious changes after i heal from this. not only do i have a moderate hip flexor tear, but i've got hip bursitis and have a decent amount of bone growth on my femur/hip socket which is about a year away from orthoscopic surgery.

not only do i have another 2-4 months of rest and physical therapy (at a minimum), but now i have to wear this charming band around my hips. and he also told me that if i didn't revise my workout routine significantly (after the rehabilitation) i will ready for a hip replacement in 3-5 years. oh, and no more swimming. this isn't going to be easy for me.

i would be lying if i didn't say that i am mildly devastated. he told me that i could still ride, but put a fair amount of limitations on that too. however, i have to also acknowledge that this is an issue that God is dealing with me about, and i'm sorting things out in my head (and heart too). i was praying on the way home, and i heard "ok monica, i am MAKING you slow down. you didn't listen."

anyway, i wanted to thank you all. i don't know that i would've ever found this place had i not been recuperating from this, and i definitely consider that a blessing.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

Well, I for one will still be praying for you & yer' health,as I'm sure other's will too.
I can only imagine how hard hearing that news was for anyone,let alone someone who is as active as you are.
Maybe in all this God will surely speak to you in ways you've never imagined.
If nothing else,you got to meet us weirdo's. lol (ok..maybe I shouldn't lump everyone into the "Jim barrel")
I still think God will do something amazing with you physically when it's all said & done. That's just my opinion.

 

[just_monicat]

Paying attention to that detail is an eye opener. Lots of times all you need to do is figure out what a person is assuming to completely understand their point of view. If you can then figure out what it means to a person emotionally, you can understand cases where a person just never seems reasonable. It's not really that they're dumb, it's just that their brain filters out everything to the contrary because it's a cherished perspective. For me, it's mostly about figuring a person out. That's what I really get out of a debate like discussion, I don't really care to change anyones point of view that isn't open to having it changed.

df, that's brilliant. you summed up in a rather eloquent manner the logic i try to use in how/when i choose my battles.

 

[abbiejean]

well, today i went to see my new sports med dr who i was referred to since i'm not healing well/quickly and it was a very eye opening experience. he basically broke my pleasant bubble of denial as to how bad things are and that i'm going to have to make some serious changes after i heal from this. not only do i have a moderate hip flexor tear, but i've got hip bursitis and have a decent amount of bone growth on my femur/hip socket which is about a year away from orthoscopic surgery.

not only do i have another 2-4 months of rest and physical therapy (at a minimum), but now i have to wear this charming band around my hips. and he also told me that if i didn't revise my workout routine significantly (after the rehabilitation) i will ready for a hip replacement in 3-5 years. oh, and no more swimming. this isn't going to be easy for me.

i would be lying if i didn't say that i am mildly devastated. he told me that i could still ride, but put a fair amount of limitations on that too. however, i have to also acknowledge that this is an issue that God is dealing with me about, and i'm sorting things out in my head (and heart too). i was praying on the way home, and i heard "ok monica, i am MAKING you slow down. you didn't listen."

anyway, i wanted to thank you all. i don't know that i would've ever found this place had i not been recuperating from this, and i definitely consider that a blessing.

Sis, please accept a cyberspace hug. My heart went...thud...after reading your post. Then I thought of your love of horses. Please know I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I will be thinking about you. Praying God comforts your heart after receiving such news. Don't know what else to say other than I do care and I will take your need before the Lord.

Abbie Jean

For a smile

 

[just_monicat]

ww_21, i am so sorry you're hurting like you are. you've been in my thoughts over the last week, and i will continue to pray for you. i am also praying that God brings someone along side you (locally) that can also be of encouragement and support. the only other thing i want to share, is that as a christian, i think we all have to go through very painful times, and that God uses those for good in our life. pain is something that forces us to change our direction, and He can use it to draw us very close to Him.

i went through a particularly painful chapter during my 21st year (as well). that was the first time in my life that i was aware of how badly i needed Him and sought Him out, just to sustain me. i was living back east, and i was going to a black church that was practically next door about 5 days a week. they accepted me and prayed with and for me. it time of great growth in my life. today, i can't tell you how grateful i am for what He did then.

seek Him. meditate on His words. call out to Him and ask Him to help you walk this difficult path.

He loves you so much precious sister, and He has amazing things already planned out for your life.

For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil...jeremiah 29:11

 

[GreenNnice]

when I get home from work today, I'm gonna have enough energy to fix the place up a bit...

no...really.

I hope and, pray, your new job is going well, catherdingsheepguidingChristfollowermusician, if it's going already.

 

[IloveyouGod]

Monica, I won't stop praying for you about this. All what I'm asking you to do right now is to cross one bridge when you get to it.

I should be the one thanking you for the highlighted line you said below because it hits me with my work problem now that I have the this same blessing you've mentioned below.

Love you sister

well, today i went to see my new sports med dr who i was referred to since i'm not healing well/quickly and it was a very eye opening experience. he basically broke my pleasant bubble of denial as to how bad things are and that i'm going to have to make some serious changes after i heal from this. not only do i have a moderate hip flexor tear, but i've got hip bursitis and have a decent amount of bone growth on my femur/hip socket which is about a year away from orthoscopic surgery.

not only do i have another 2-4 months of rest and physical therapy (at a minimum), but now i have to wear this charming band around my hips. and he also told me that if i didn't revise my workout routine significantly (after the rehabilitation) i will ready for a hip replacement in 3-5 years. oh, and no more swimming. this isn't going to be easy for me.

i would be lying if i didn't say that i am mildly devastated. he told me that i could still ride, but put a fair amount of limitations on that too. however, i have to also acknowledge that this is an issue that God is dealing with me about, and i'm sorting things out in my head (and heart too). i was praying on the way home, and i heard "ok monica, i am MAKING you slow down. you didn't listen."

anyway, i wanted to thank you all. i don't know that i would've ever found this place had i not been recuperating from this, and i definitely consider that a blessing.

 

[GreenNnice]

well, today i went to see my new sports med dr who i was referred to since i'm not healing well/quickly and it was a very eye opening experience. he basically broke my pleasant bubble of denial as to how bad things are and that i'm going to have to make some serious changes after i heal from this. not only do i have a moderate hip flexor tear, but i've got hip bursitis and have a decent amount of bone growth on my femur/hip socket which is about a year away from orthoscopic surgery.

not only do i have another 2-4 months of rest and physical therapy (at a minimum), but now i have to wear this charming band around my hips. and he also told me that if i didn't revise my workout routine significantly (after the rehabilitation) i will ready for a hip replacement in 3-5 years. oh, and no more swimming. this isn't going to be easy for me.

i would be lying if i didn't say that i am mildly devastated. he told me that i could still ride, but put a fair amount of limitations on that too. however, i have to also acknowledge that this is an issue that God is dealing with me about, and i'm sorting things out in my head (and heart too). i was praying on the way home, and i heard "ok monica, i am MAKING you slow down. you didn't listen."

anyway, i wanted to thank you all. i don't know that i would've ever found this place had i not been recuperating from this, and i definitely consider that a blessing.

Well, I for one will still be praying for you & yer' health,as I'm sure other's will too.
I can only imagine how hard hearing that news was for anyone,let alone someone who is as active as you are.
Maybe in all this God will surely speak to you in ways you've never imagined.
If nothing else,you got to meet us weirdo's. lol (ok..maybe I shouldn't lump everyone into the "Jim barrel")
I still think God will do something amazing with you physically when it's all said & done. That's just my opinion.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^yep^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

 

[Jullianna]

Praying for your healing, monicat

 

[rachelsedge]

Today, I texted two of my friends in a group message, "Hey ladies, thinking about having a movie night at my house Friday!" I've had one with them before, just us.

I guess one of the girls didn't see that it was just sent to her and my other friend, because at my ladies Bible study tonight, she was telling the girls about how I might be having a "game night" at my house on Friday. She wasn't trying to be rude or anything, she just thought that I texted more people than I did. I didn't want to say in front of everyone, "Actually, that was just to you and Tiff", and I didn't have the heart to tell her afterwards (she's very sweet and would feel so bad having already invited people), so...

Every introvert's nightmare, heh: More people over than they wanted. We'll see how this turns out.

I've been feeling extra anti-social, lately. The two people I had grown close to (not the two that I invited, different train of thought here, though sorta connected), could really be myself with and struggle with, are not here (one's in college, one has moved out of state for the time being) and I feel myself sliding back into myself and putting my walls back up because there aren't any others that I trust like that, or see myself trusting like that. Bleh.

 

[lil_christian]

I have soooo not done what I've needed to do this week. Time to get the notebooks and buckle down. If I wanna graduate early and get a job, I gotta grow up and push through. Ugh. I hate hearing that. SO MUCH. You have no idea. I don't want to do. But nothing will be handed to me on a silver platter.

Unless you're on welfare, unemployment benefits, or some other government program.... oops. Did I just say that?

 

[IloveyouGod]

No one gets anything on a silver plate these days little sis. I like your determination and strong attitude. Go get it girl!!

I have soooo not done what I've needed to do this week. Time to get the notebooks and buckle down. If I wanna graduate early and get a job, I gotta grow up and push through. Ugh. I hate hearing that. SO MUCH. You have no idea. I don't want to do. But nothing will be handed to me on a silver platter.

Unless you're on welfare, unemployment benefits, or some other government program.... oops. Did I just say that?

 

[lil_christian]

Goodnight world. I don't want to sleep. But I will for the sake of functioning and humanity itself.

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

Every introvert's nightmare, heh: More people over than they wanted. We'll see how this turns out.

I feel myself sliding back into myself and putting my walls back up because there aren't any others that I trust like that, or see myself trusting like that. Bleh.

I had to smile, reading this. Looks like Someone Up There is pushing you back out of your comfort zone! Perhaps you'll come to know, trust and love these other people more than you realized you could. Power through!

 

[zeroturbulence]

Today, I texted two of my friends in a group message, "Hey ladies, thinking about having a movie night at my house Friday!" I've had one with them before, just us.

I guess one of the girls didn't see that it was just sent to her and my other friend, because at my ladies Bible study tonight, she was telling the girls about how I might be having a "game night" at my house on Friday. She wasn't trying to be rude or anything, she just thought that I texted more people than I did. I didn't want to say in front of everyone, "Actually, that was just to you and Tiff", and I didn't have the heart to tell her afterwards (she's very sweet and would feel so bad having already invited people), so...

Every introvert's nightmare, heh: More people over than they wanted. We'll see how this turns out.

I've been feeling extra anti-social, lately. The two people I had grown close to (not the two that I invited, different train of thought here, though sorta connected), could really be myself with and struggle with, are not here (one's in college, one has moved out of state for the time being) and I feel myself sliding back into myself and putting my walls back up because there aren't any others that I trust like that, or see myself trusting like that. Bleh.

If I were you I'd suddenly be coming down with a 12-hour flu that day. And of course I wouldn't be sure when I could reschedule.

 

[zeroturbulence]

stuff happened.

You just summed up the entire bible in two words!

 

[Praus]

James 1:8 A double minded man [is] unstable in all his ways.

 

[Fenner]

ww-21, i am praying for you sister.

 

[Fenner]

Day 3 Of this miserable illness, for the whole family. For the first time my pharmacy screwed some orders up for Tamiflu for my kids. It was nuts. I'm glad they choose the day I have no voice to call me with questions like, we're out of the strength Tamiflu want to call around? Seeing as there are 5 more CVS pharmacies in our area I asked them to check. Call from another CVS the pharmacy that had just called to ask me about my son, told them they never got prescriptions for my children.

It did eventually work out it took like 10 calls. It was crazy.

 

[Tintin]

Perhaps some of them are confusing our private selves with our public selves. Their mom/wife/sister may be at home complaining about bloating, cramps, craziness, or whatever. But that's because home is where you kick off you shoes, remove constricting undergarments, let your hair down, and just say it like it is. We don't wear our pajamas to work, neither do we talk to our colleagues with the same freedom as we do to our families. I can guarantee you that if men in an office or at church talk the way they do when they are with their fraternity brothers, we would never grant men authority over anything ever again.

Sorry I'm late to the party but I'm not sure what you're saying here. Are you saying these men become crude and lack integrity when they're with their friends and not their family?