Brother, please don't talk yourself down. I didn't think I had a snowball's chance in Hell at finding someone. In part, I was happy in my singleness for so long because I didn't see a future for me that was anything but me, God, friends and family. So I didn't entertain the idea. And in the end, it wasn't even me (not in the earliest of days), it was God at work, and Arlene (and some other CCers giving us the push). Don't give up hope! Rest in God, seek Him first and pray about everything. Who knows what could happen? (God does!)