So I stayed up to watch the Alabama/Ohio state game and went to bed knowing i had to get up early. I just laid my head on the pillow when my computer "rang". It was a problem with a system at work. I thought I could resolve through the network, but after several tries I couldn't. I had to end up driving in to work, getting there at 3AM and working the issue that turned into issues (plural) and finally finding out (just now at noon the next day) that what I did - the procedures I followed, the skill set I've learned, the experience I have, the initiatives I took, the work I did - didn't amount to much. The problem could have resolved itself because of some fail safes already in place for just such an issue. In short, I wasn't needed, I created extra work, and the effort I made and the fact that I missed a lot ...well all of sleep was really for nothing except maybe I learned a lesson. Maybe even an important one.
The lesson I also learned this morning is that maybe I'm not always needed. That my advice or love or attention I might give isn't always a thing that's wanted or needed. A failsafe might be in place that I'm not aware of and I might just be making things worse when I was trying to make it better. I didn't respect the fact that the writers of the program I was working on had foreseen the kind of issue I encountered and had written in steps to counteract it.
I'm learning that maybe I'm not respecting the fact that God has written in plans for others that gives them strengths or faith that move mountains that help them to counteract.
It hurts to lose sleep and I have a full day ahead of me and it's only lunchtime. But I get overtime and that's good. It hurts to realize my help might not be needed, but it's a blessing to understand a lesson and that's good too!