ok soo hmm where do i start lol now i feel nervous ha... well id say the date went ok i got to the restaurant, and he was at the entrance waiting for me, he took his hat off when he saw me, opened the door for me ( in my world thats rare, when i was in Bible College, i got so used to men doing that for me that it was a difficult adjustment when i left lol so that was a nice touch!) so where do i begin.... well idk how in depth i want to get on here lol.... we ordered, i wasnt sure if he was going to pray for our food or not i kinda waited, so finally i said i was going to pray lol and did. we ate and talked, he had told me before hand when he was a child he had meningitis, but didn't say really what the lasting effects were so i was def nervous about that tonight! umm so he told me some stuff, he has some disabilities, learning, has issues with the part of the brain that controls impulses... umm he seems very attached to me already... in the past i have always been that person, but i have really tried to work on that so its weird to be on the other side of the coin... i dont think thats healthy and i flat out told him so lol... he told me i am very forward... idk if thats a good thing or a bad thing.... we talked for almost 4 hours he asked me out again, i said that i would like to go out again. My thoughts... im hesitant about his disability, i was reading online and they deal with memory loss, forgetfulness, lack of control of impulse. i work at a place where its people with handicaps/ barriers to employment i know that i should not worry about what others think and that that is very shallow, but i dont want someone from work to think that i am taking advantage of him so to say... if that makes sense? he told me he has had anger issues in the past he was locked up in a juvenile center when he was a teen, hes not had a stable life for the most part it sounded like his mom passed him around.
his dad was killed when he was 6.... umm idk he was polite, sweet, friendly, courteous, kind, hes a christian (id say newer because of where his life was) he mentioned something about PTSD? because of his dads murder im not sure what that all is about... but anyways this is probably liek a million pages long... if you got this far in reading and can handle my rambling ohh and he also paid for dinner!