Zone let me ask you this... When i do sin, am I following the Holy Spirits lead? No! i follow my own. But I know I can come back where I left Him, or He comes back for me? Do you think it is now Possible to ask the Holy Spirit to lead me closer, so I do not AGAIN do the SAME thing, oh by the way I do not like doing it but before I can stop i did it. Do you think God can help with this. I hope so!
Zone you know I have always loved you, and I still do, and I can see you are a serious seeker, me too... I just seek a bit more from God than you, and God will exceed both our expectations. WHY because HE promised...SEEK and thou shall find!...
Listen Zone, we do not have much time left, in stead of arguing, may I raise the white flag and surrender? God knows my heart, and He knows me better than I know myself, or so I hope. I truly hope God knows me, if not, then you introduce us OK!
You know me well, you know I am not a hypocrate, I am not scared to open the books and chambers of my heart. And you know I love as much as I can, and there where my life is still a mess, I CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT! But maybe, just maybe, you can! So do not harden your heart to me today, just for today the 24th of August. I will also not harden my heart, and let us see what God does for BOTH of us, if we REALLY care for eachother, just 24 hours.
I love you and I need Jesus, to fill me with HIS love so that I can also love myself as much as I would like to love me. Sorry I would lie if I tell you I love myself, I think I am so confused, I love EVERYBODY more than myself, I still think EVERYBODY is better off than me. I am a wreched man, who will save me, or would wnat to save me? I am so wreched and crooket and evil... May God have mercy on me! Amen!