So are you mad at God or what? That happens you know. Or your marriage and give up hope on things. I'm sorry you had cancer. I hate cancer. My mom died of it years ago. I hope all works out for you. I love miracles and I hope you do too one day. But if you don't OK.
This is ridiculous. You have gone from being very soft spoken and sweet to outright hostile? Why? Al I have stated is MY beliefs. I have not said you or others are wrong to believe the way you believe, and I have constantly stated that my view of miracles and other signs is obviously different. I have never said that I do not believe in miracles. I never have even shown that i hate God either, but you failing to even understand what I am saying is rather insulting and commenting on my personal life in a way where you are attacking me is quite offensive. Thank goodness I am nice enough to inform you of my cancer, and a little bit about myself so you don't blow up in ignorance again..so here i go....
First off, I have never been married. Yes, I fornicated. I had sex and 2 minutes later..well, you know...
After my son was born they found some cancer cells somewhere in my body, and luckily a procedure got rid of them all. No treatment or medication was needed. I did not once HATE God for any of this, but was thankful God was in my life so I could ask for forgiveness for my sins after my baby was born, and was transported to another hospital for 2 weeks and lived in a incubator where I could not even hold my newborn. I prayed everyday for God to keep him safe, and to let him come home with me and not to take him from me. Sure, I was a 20 year old single mother and I guess it would have been "easier" if i did not have a child, but he was mine. I created him, and I asked God constantly to let me KEEP MY BABY BOY. To let me raise him to be a good Christian man and let him live a long a healthy life. God granted me this. My son is 9 years old.
Two days after I brought him home from the hospital his father informs me that he did not love me. He did not want me, or his child. He even stated he was cheating on me from the day he met me. Well, thats what I get for going to bed with someone who I am not married to. Did I hate God? NO. I leaned on him yet again.
Throughout my life I have leaned on him. As a matter of fact if it was not for God I would not have gotten out of an abusive relationship where I was emotionally and sexually abused for about 3 years. If it wasn't for God my mother may not still be alive after being diagnosed with cancer 3 times.
Finally, if it wasn't for God I would not have had to ability to watch my sister take her last breath. She died last month. I spent hours reading the bible and praying. Was I praying for a miracle? No. I was praying that God would end her suffering and take her. I knew that I would miss her, and I do. Yet, I also know that she is better off than any of us. Why? Because she is no longer suffereing. No longer depressed, suffering from colitis, and anorexia, liver failure, and kidney failure. She is in a better place.
Did I want her to live? Yes. Of course I did, but I also knew had she survived her quality of life would not be good. She would not be able to be a mother or wife. So I did what I thought was best and said "God, I can handle her death. Afterall we all will die one day, but please keep her around long enough to confess her sins, and make peace with others if she needs to, but please don't let her suffer.
That night, while sitting by my sisters side, tears in my eyes I prayed once more for God to take her from this suffereing. Suddenly I felt peaceful. Can't really explain it other than pleasant feeling and calm. I knew then everything was gonna be ok. About a minure later she took her last breath. I am speaking 100% truth here. What was that feeling I had just before she died? Well, I would most likely say that was God giving me comfort and assurance.
Was that a miracle? No. It was God's love.
So, do I hate God because I don't believe in moder day signs? No. I love God, and I use faith, the bible and prayer to praise him.
I don't need to see a supernatural occurance to know God is with me. He has his ways of showing me these things. Not by prophets, and watching a lame person walk....but by little suttle experiences that only I know about.
So be careful how to take others opinions. I love God as much as you do. I just don't need PROOF to believe in him. I have my faith.
Im also sorry I typed so long. That was not the intention but I refuse to use a backspace.