What calling did God give me?
Seriously man....you are going overboard.
Keep in mind that Christianity is about a persons PERSONAL relationship with God among other things.
You are acting as if I should prove things to you. I have nothing to prove to another person. Only God.
Anyway, I am off here for a while.
I will continue this later when my brain is functioning a little better. I iz TIRED
I haven't ever seen him be mean. He's trying to make you think Elizabeth so you can see what God wants you to do.
Like for me I know part of my calling was about compassion. I have a bleeding heart. I have since I was little. So that works in God has me praying all the time for lost souls. And he said I would be used to bring many souls to him.
That compassion is a gift. God is compassion.
When he started giving me gifts he would tell me to do things. He wanted to see if I was going to obey. If I would know it was him talking to me. Like he told me to shake a rattle in church. The music was over and I felt silly. I knew he told me to shake the rattle. But I didn't. Some other lady shakes her tambourine and I felt bad cause I disobeyed. He was checking me out. To see if he could use me. I didn't want to disobey. All Christians should want to be used by God any way he wants right.
Then things like this lady who had a fall, was some what brain damaged. She had set out and got sun burned really bad, 3rd degree. I was new at this gift stuff. The elders came to get my step mom to go pray for the lady.
The Lord told me to go too. I'm thinking I'm new at this. I don't know what to do. But I didn't want to disobey God. So I went. He told me to put my hand on her. So I did. Pain came into my hand. Hurt. The pain went up my arm. The Lord was letting me feel her pain. I prayed better when I knew how she felt.
I don't think the church at that time was learned enough or had enough faith in them to do great miracles in his name. But God was using this situation to train me in him. The ladies body was part paralyzed from the fall that hurt her brain. I wasn't being given the gift of healing hands yet I was being trained to be a higher level intercessor. There are levels in everything so don't jump on me.
There is a gift of God, of feeling other peoples pain, sadness things going on with them.
The lady died a few years later. God had connected this lady and me. I had moved out of town and one day I just started crying my head off. I was so sad and hurt. I knew it wasn't me. A few days later I found out that lady had died. I was feeling her mothers pain.
To deal with feeling others pain was very hard for me and took me a long time to understand. For one thing you have to learn how to give it over to God. Or you can actually live in someone else's feelings. Not cool. You can take on thier sickness or depression and you have to be careful.
And I didn't know hardly anyone else who had this kind of gift. So I couldn't get counsel.
Or this man had cancer. I didn't know him. I knew his wife. I kept getting a vision of me praying in his front yard. I think today I would do it differently.
But since I was new. I kept seeing me in his yard praying. I told the pastor but he was still baby so he couldn't help me. And ignored me. So I told the ladies group at church.
The man wasn't saved.
So we all went to his yard. I took scripture for God to heal him and scripture for God to release him if he wasn't going to be healed.
Because of the cancer he did except God.
So there we were in his yard. I went to where I was in the vision. This other lady went with me. She had did the same as me. Had both kinds of scripture. The others went other places in the yard. WE all prayed.
The ones who were in the area of where he drank told demons to get.
WE prayed and then all got together and prayed. While we were there praying the Lord told me the man was going to get a bump on his stomach and it was going to explode and the Lord was going to take him home.
What do you do with that information. The next day he got a big bump...a cyst. They rushed him to the hospital and it burst and he died.
That was my begining. The lady who went with me at the praying she was to have mighty gifts of God. But she remains not doing what God has called her to do. To hide or bury the talents is dangerous. They are meant to be used.
We both were given the gift of healing hands in Jesus but she was too shy. The Lord even had me tell her she had to be bold. She would not. I found out years later another had been told to tell her she has to be bold. She would not. That means people could be healed through her hands but she will not step out of the boat.
To disobey God leaves the doors open for Satan to attack. She has a wonderful heart. But she should have gotten over thinking of herself and how shy or scared she is and do what she is told. She has sickness after sickness after sickness. Life and death stuff all the time.
As far as the personal relationship that's the point you are your testimony. When you tell how you feel about God that's how you bring them to God. We should all figure out what our callings are so we can do them. Be our destinies the good plan God made for us before we were born. Instead of the what is my destiny. We all have gifts and talents given by God even if it's not all about holy gifts.
Like if you bake the greatest cookies you will be used by God some how in that area. Cookies will be involved. Am I making since.
I'm sorry. I just pray all of Gods people will step into the anointing s God wants for them. We should all be praying to be used.