I am 27 years old, never been married, but it has been my dream since I was a little girl. - I am 44 years old, never ben married, but it has been my dream since I was a little girl that I thought it was my dream but it is my family's dream, my society's expectation for me to be married. Are you sure it's your dream or just a mere influence, peer pressure? Because if it's your dream, you will wait for it patiently and have faith that God put it in your heart. Hebrews 11, Faith is... certain of what we do not see. Married is just a status, but marriage is a relationship. You are just after the status and not relationship with GOd's planned husband for you.
The closer I get to turning 30, the more depressing it gets that I am still unmarried and single. - Depressing mode is not something of a magic that has just planted in your mind and heart. Let me speak that truth in love. Please don't get me wrong, it is your choice to be depressed about it. A normal feeling to be depressed but to dwell in it and make it grow in you - that's not fit for a christian. Do not worry or be anxious - He cares for you.
It's hard to go to family gatherings and being the only single adult in my family or always being the bridesmaid and never the bride. I am a hairstylist so I have even had to endure doing bride hair. I am to the point that I am bitter bc it's hard to be happy for others who are married when that is the thing I want the most. I feel like a child bc I am unmarried. I want to feel like a woman! I have prayed and prayed for many years that God sends me a husband. I stay so bitter and sad. Any advice or can anyone relate - I'm not answering this because I can relate, or i can give you advice because i have been there in that situation, I'm answering this because I'd like you to see how God is working in your life. He never abandoned you whenever you face those situations... because You are not alone. We are here. We are in the same boat. The only difference is are you paddling desperately or trustfully in God? It's your choice how to respond gracefully whenever you face societies expectations or your own expectation. My response to that? First, i lift them all up to God, the hurts that their comments brought to me and be real with God. He knew me before was born. Cried all the emotions, the feeling of deprivations to God alone. Being open about bitterness is good, confess your bitterness to God - but see to it that there's no bitter root... as the scriptures indicated that you have to stop it growing in you or you will miss God's great plan for you (Jer. 29:11)
You want to feel like a woman? - I'm just concerned. Are there only feelings like bitter, sad, depressed, your drowning to your emotions. Emotions will pass - they are temporary, you have to submit them all to the Spirit's leading because what the flesh desires is contradicting to what the Spirit's desires.
I have prayed and prayed for many years that God sends me a husband. Did God really say he will send us a husband? Did he promise us specifically of a husband? What I've learned from his words is he promised us that he will be with us, he will never leave nor forsake us, he will be our husband. If there is - Delight yourself in the LOrd, and he will give you the desires of your heart. THis scripture is always the single fave verse - is desire just referring to a husband? OUr very first desire should be - to love God with all of our hearts, soul and mind, and love our neighbors... If there's a plan for a partner in life... that's a gift and not a plan and not even a promise. A gift that should be received without expectation or entitlement.
I hope I have helped you here. I will continue to pray for one another. Stay faithful and GBU.