Sorry maybe you are not calvanist. You obviously do not like the concept of ability, free will. You do not like the idea people are born with love in their hearts, or that the key to the gospel is love shown through the cross which transforms the believer to repent, and walk in righteousness.
I got to say what I believe is based on my experience and discussion with many others over time. What I am happy with is when people can be clear why they believe certain things and why. I used to think revival would come, but now I doubt it severly, because people no longer agree what faith actually is, and conviction of sin on a mass scale is probably now no longer a thing people can about. In this community here sin is not the issue, miracles or command authority seems more something they want to concentrate on, while the church is shrinking, because emotional reality and love are missing in the experience and expression of those who remain.
But then I am the heretic, or the one with the religious spirit, or the unrepentant legalist or whatever adjective of rejection you care to come up with. It feels like Jesus coming to his own people and finding they do not like the light about sin and reality, and would rather walk in their compromises and theology.