I want to die

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Instant healing doesn't happen very often in this lifetime. I have felt different my entire life, since about age 9 or so when I made my first suicide attempt. I've had seizures since the age of 5, and to this day they are an embarassment and a hindrance. I hated school because I had them all the time and the other kids didn't understand why. I had heavy periods and would bleed through my dress and the other kids would laugh. My mother makes fun of me to this day, as to how weird and odd and anti-social I am.. So I've been there, done it ALL. I have felt many times that God has deserted me, doesn't hear me and doesn't care. We have all been in that situation more than once. You claim to have a relationship with God, yet you're denying his power to help you. And you're betraying Him by giving into satan's lies.
You're a very brave woman who has overcome, with the grace of God, great adversity and hardship. All of your posts that you have written would make a good book containing nuggets of spiritual wisdom. It would be a must read.
 

Huglife

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Now, you know me personally, Jer, don't go filling these people's heads with that kind of stuff. (I might have to start trying to live up to some of that nonsense.)
I Agree to!!!!
 
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Now, you know me personally, Jer, don't go filling these people's heads with that kind of stuff. (I might have to start trying to live up to some of that nonsense.)
Thank you, Huggie Kitten. We gotta be careful, people might start believin' this addled ol' man is more than just a crotchety old crab.

BTW, now that that is out of the way, I have been meaning to ask about the kitty. Yours? And is that dyed fur?
 

blue_ladybug

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You're a very brave woman who has overcome, with the grace of God, great adversity and hardship. All of your posts that you have written would make a good book containing nuggets of spiritual wisdom. It would be a must read.

Know of any good publishers? lol.. If I thought it would sell, I'd write one. :)
 

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You're a very brave woman who has overcome, with the grace of God, great adversity and hardship. All of your posts that you have written would make a good book containing nuggets of spiritual wisdom. It would be a must read.
Ya blue your a very brave and wise women. Göd Bless you
 
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It probably would be a good book with plenty of spiritual truth, but the real question is whether or not it would be said in love.
 

Huglife

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Thank you, Huggie Kitten. We gotta be careful, people might start believin' this addled ol' man is more than just a crotchety old crab.

BTW, now that that is out of the way, I have been meaning to ask about the kitty. Yours? And is that dyed fur?
lol! No it aint mine. I wish it was though!I found the pic off of a wallpaper app
 

blue_ladybug

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It probably would be a good book with plenty of spiritual truth, but the real question is whether or not it would be said in love.
Everything I say is said with love, even if it is harshly spoken. Even Jesus spoke harshly sometimes, but he ALWAYS spoke with love. :)
 
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Everything I say is said with love, even if it is harshly spoken. Even Jesus spoke harshly sometimes, but he ALWAYS spoke with love. :)
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I wrote about this in my prayer journal one time, and Jesus described it to me as a kind and compassionate doctor giving someone a bad diagnosis, and then offering treatment. Jesus was never harsh with those who followed him, he was always harsh with those who opposed him.
 

blue_ladybug

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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I wrote about this in my prayer journal one time, and Jesus described it to me as a kind and compassionate doctor giving someone a bad diagnosis, and then offering treatment. Jesus was never harsh with those who followed him, he was always harsh with those who opposed him.

Jesus was harsh even with those he loved. He called his friend Judas a traitor, and told Peter that he would deny Him, even thought Peter swore he would never betray Jesus. Jesus told truth straight, with no chaser. The only difference is, Jesus did it more gently than I do. I tell things like I see them, I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell the person what they want to hear, instead of what they NEED to hear. Even Jesus said that open rebuke is better than hidden love. :)
 
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Jesus was harsh even with those he loved. He called his friend Judas a traitor, and told Peter that he would deny Him, even thought Peter swore he would never betray Jesus. Jesus told truth straight, with no chaser. The only difference is, Jesus did it more gently than I do. I tell things like I see them, I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell the person what they want to hear, instead of what they NEED to hear. Even Jesus said that open rebuke is better than hidden love. :)
Please show me where he said that. It makes me sad when Christians don't think the tone and spirit of the message is just as important as the words. No one likes to hear a painful diagnosis, but they would rather hear it from someone who cares rather than someone who condemns.
 
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What I'm trying to say is open rebuke may be better than hidden love, but it doesn't say rebuking requires you to be harsh.
 

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Jesus was harsh even with those he loved. He called his friend Judas a traitor, and told Peter that he would deny Him, even thought Peter swore he would never betray Jesus. Jesus told truth straight, with no chaser. The only difference is, Jesus did it more gently than I do. I tell things like I see them, I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell the person what they want to hear, instead of what they NEED to hear. Even Jesus said that open rebuke is better than hidden love. :)
To be fair, though, Jesus already knew what was going to happen. Hence why Jesus said what He said. And Jesus (to my knowledge) never publicly told the other disciples that Judas was going to be the one that was going to betray Him. He never gave a precise name to anyone.
 
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Willie T is a very wise man. He has over 20 years experience with helping lost causes who really weren't so lost after all. If I remember correctly, he even has a prison ministry (I think, lol). You would do well to listen to him. :)
Thank you Blue Bug.......... but no prison ministry. I have simply worked with ex-prisoners and sometimes those awaiting sentencing. The psychiatric ward I worked on as a young man was a forensic unit, but it was not an actual prison.
 
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Huggie,
Sometimes I have noticed you (at least I think they are your posts) type Göd with an umlaut. Are you using a German or Latin-based keyboard?
 
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blue_ladybug

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To be fair, though, Jesus already knew what was going to happen. Hence why Jesus said what He said. And Jesus (to my knowledge) never publicly told the other disciples that Judas was going to be the one that was going to betray Him. He never gave a precise name to anyone.
I never said He did. But he DID tell Peter that he would deny him.
 

blue_ladybug

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What I'm trying to say is open rebuke may be better than hidden love, but it doesn't say rebuking requires you to be harsh.
As you can see, I'm rather straightforward in my answers. So if you're expecting a sugar coated bubble gum version of reality, you won't receive it from me. Sometimes people need a good dose of the truth, even if they don't want to hear it. And rebukes are SUPPOSED to be tough. They wouldn't be rebukes if they were gentle. :) We've tried being gentle with you, and we've tried being tough. And you resist both. You came here for help and advice, so accept it whether it's gentle or tough, because both are good for you.

Had someone spoken harshly to me about certain situations I've found myself in, such as leaving my ex because he was an abusive no-good bum, I would have gladly heeded their advice. But I didn't, so one day I found myself getting strangled by him. You should be glad that some of us are giving you a tough time, so you can heed our advice before you REALLY get yourself any deeper in this mud pit of sadness that you've got going on. You don't like your life? Then get proactive and do something to change it, rather than just moaning about how unfair it is.
 
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As you can see, I'm rather straightforward in my answers. So if you're expecting a sugar coated bubble gum version of reality, you won't receive it from me. Sometimes people need a good dose of the truth, even if they don't want to hear it. And rebukes are SUPPOSED to be tough. They wouldn't be rebukes if they were gentle. :) We've tried being gentle with you, and we've tried being tough. And you resist both. You came here for help and advice, so accept it whether it's gentle or tough, because both are good for you.

Had someone spoken harshly to me about certain situations I've found myself in, such as leaving my ex because he was an abusive no-good bum, I would have gladly heeded their advice. But I didn't, so one day I found myself getting strangled by him. You should be glad that some of us are giving you a tough time, so you can heed our advice before you REALLY get yourself any deeper in this mud pit of sadness that you've got going on. You don't like your life? Then get proactive and do something to change it, rather than just moaning about how unfair it is.
I'm not asking to receive a sugar-coated version of reality. And I have been proactive in my life. I really am sorry for every awful thing you've experienced in your life. I'm sure it must have been very painful for you. But that doesn't mean you can hand out truth in a non-loving way. I'm not going to try to defend myself anymore. I leave you with this.

2 Timothy 2:23-26

Don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.